What Hurts The Most

Chapter 4 The Fight Thats Turns Into More

(All of these are gonna be in Raph's POV until I say other wise.)
After a night of no sleep I was so tired. I could barely keep my eyes open in practice. This is gonna be hard tonight. Oh, I forgot to tell you I'm the Nightwatcher. Yeah I know it's dangerous but someone has to do it. Time to go.
30 minutes later...
I end up on a roof listening to music
Numb; Linkin Parks
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
Then I take out my earbuds and hear someone. It's Leo! "I appreciate what your doing but you can't save the world like this." Leo said. Time to teach you a lesson. Then I drop my chains. "Trust me when I tell you this you don't wanna do this." Leo said. Then I charge at him and we fight. Soon I drop my weapons and challenge him to a fist fight. "Finally some excitement." Leo said. We started fighting again. "Funny thing about anger let it control you and you can loose sight of everything." Leo said then he disappeared. I look around. Then he kicks me in the face. Shit he's gonna know. Ah who freaking cares. I fall and he's about to finish me when he sees my face. "Raph what?!" He says shocked. Then I kick him against a smoking stand. "You think your so smart you think the world revolves around you well I got a news flash fer you we were just fine when you were gone!" I screamed. "And this qualifies as just fine dressing up like its Halloween every night risking the safety of our family." Leo said. "Save it you can't expect us when you come back to be yer little soldiers." I said. "I was training to be a better leader for u why do you hate me for that?!" He screamed. "And who ever said I wanted to be lead I'm better calling my own shots so get used to it!" I fired back. "Your not ready you hot tempered, impatient, and most importantly I'm better than you." Leo said. That hurt. "Y-your right..." I said holding back tears. "R-Raph?" He said. "Save it I'm done." I said.
Nothing's ever gonna change.