What Hurts The Most

Chapter 6 I Never Had A Childhood

I can't believe Leo just walked away. When I pushed him away when we were younger but he would stay. He promised me he would always do that. He didn't. Another promise broken. Another mistake. Another cut. I grabbed the razor from across the room. I hesitated. But then I felt the sharp cold metal of the blade slide gracefully over my pale green skin. It hurt for a moment and then I felt relief. Warm blood rolled down my arm. I had to take a paper towel to stop it from dripping on the floor. After I had washed it I looked to see if it was deep enough that I needed stitches. It wasn't so I wrapped it and went to training. "Where were u?" Leo asked angrily. "What do u mean?" I asked. "You know we have early practice off Wednesday." He said glaring at me. "I'm sorry. I forgot." I said. "You always forget!" He screamed back. "Yame please let us begin training Leonardo with Raphael and Michelangelo." Master splinter said. Leo and I started. He charged at me with his blade high. He looked like he wanted to hurt me. Bad. "Leo I'm sorry." I said. "So your sorry for showing up late sorry for letting your temper ruin this team and break this family apart." Leo sneered. "Hey now I was trying to be nice." I said getting slightly angered. "Oh Raphie trying to be nice oh please." He said like a teenage girl. "I TOLD YOU TO NEVER CALL ME THAT!" I screamed. "Oh, what's Raph gonna do fight me?" Leo said. I charged at him. "It's not my fault your a bad leader." I said. "Don't even go there." Leo said glaring at me. "Oh did I make Lame-anardo mad? When are you gonna learn to grow up." I said. "I am grown up I had to grow up early to keep you guys safe I NEVER HAD A FREAKING CHILDHOOD THERE I SAID IT ARE YOU HAPPY SEEING ME WEAK!!" Leo said running off crying.

Song: amnesia Artist: 5 seconds of summer (no Leo and Raph aren't in love)

[Raph:]
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

[Leo:]
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

[Raph:]
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

[Leo:]
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all