The Book of Poems from Life

3

Him him him
He's all that's plastered
Across my mind

It's been 3 months and 8 days
Since we video chatted
That's 99 days
Tomorrow will be 100

I haven't seen him this year
Last time was
December 28th

We weren't even together
He wanted a break
Claimed to be too busy
Said he couldn't give what I deserved
But he still wanted to support me

Eventually,
I talked him out of it
But when we skyped
We weren't officially together

23 days
Over 3 weeks
Since we had our last phone call
Since I heard his voice talking to me

It's been to long
I'm tired of weak excuses
I'm tired of him just ignoring my pleas
I'm tired of not feeling like enough for him

I'm just so fucking tired