Music, Coffee, and Blood (A Frerard and Rikey Fanfiction)

Food Is Evil

okay, guys. I was gonna update this early September....of 2013?! I'm so sorry I HAVENT updated! if ur still with me, thank u! school and some personal stuff has been beating my ass so yea. sorry I'd this chapter ends weird or is short, I'm trying to get back into the groove.---------------------

Mikey's POV-

I sat next to Ray in front of the fire. I snuggled into Ray's neck, breathing in his odd sent of cigarettes and cinnamon. I closed my eyes and he stroked my back. Out of no where, a bag of marshmallows hit me in the face. I sat up from Ray and examined the bag, before throwing it back at Gerard as he sat down on the couchy thing next to the one I was on.

"Thank you, Mikes!!! I knew I lost these somewhere!" he says sassyily.

Frank comes bouncing over with Graham crackers, chocolate and sticks. Gerard immediately stuck a marshmallow on his skewer thing and put it over the fire. Frank and Ray followed suit. I grabbed the box of graham crackers, glancing at the calorie amount quickly. I pulled out a few crackers from the sleeve and nibbled on them slowly.

"Mikey, want one?" Ray asked, holding out a smore he made.

I just shook my head and turned my attention to the ground. He thought nothing of it and shoved the sandwich into his mouth, chewing happily away.

Good,your learning. I thought to myself. Food is evil. The calories, fats. Everything about it. But being a human, I apparently need it to survive.

After about 15 minutes, I was done being around food. I got up quickly and went inside. I ran up the stairs and changed into a pair of boxers. I grabbed my iphone and glasses off the table and I opened my notepad. I began typing furiously, about everything. I reread it and closed the note. I scrolled a few times and found one titled "Suicide Note". I began to tear up as I stared at my phone screen. No one knew about the suicide note I wrote. I couldn't even bring myself to read it after I got together with Ray. I threw my phone to the floor and curled up into a ball in top of the covers. I heard someone open the door.

"Babe? What's wrong?" It was Ray. How am I going to tell him everything?! This is too much. I have to tell him, he deserves to know.

I sat up, turning to Ray. "Ray I need you to read something on my phone. Its titled "Suicide Note"". I said quietly.

He bent over and picked up my phone, moving over to the bed to sit next to me.

"Mikey,are you sure you want me to read this?" he asked slowly.

"I'm positive, you deserve to know what i was and what I am going through mentally and emotionally." I smiled weakly. He kissed my forehead and held my hand tightly. He unlocked my phone and opened the note. He began to read the one thing I never thought anyone would see.

------------I'll probably update later tonight or tomorrow! Sorry for the cliffhanger!!!!!!