Hi! Because I can't be bothered to use my extra study block for actual work, and there is a burning for me to update SOMETHING, here I am.
Have fun reading!
Out of all of the 7 billion people on this Earth my heart could have chosen, it was you. It decided on a boy who had didn't have any room to spare in his heart for me.
I don't know whether to smile and laugh that you're finally my best friend again, or to cry because I know that's all I'll ever be.
Maybe Cupid decided that one arrow was good enough for our relationship.
The love that lasts the longest is the one which is never returned.
No matter what I do, there is always somebody else on your mind. Somebody who isn't me. I don't understand how you can't see what I feel for you. I can't even contemplate the fact that the person I am heads-over-heels with doesn't know I exist. That he has eyes for another. That feeling is the worst ever.
I gave you everything I had. You didn't care. I felt like I was nothing, insubstantial without you.
How come whenever I look at you, you never look back?
Even as you shatter my heart into a million pieces, all of me wishes for you to be happy, wherever you are and whoever you're with. Even though I wished it was here with me.
I don't love me. If I can't, then how can you? I'm sorry for giving you everything,for burdening you, even though you didn't want it.
I can shut my eyes as much as I want. But I can never lock up these stupid feelings my heart still holds for you. It won't leave, no matter what I do. Why can't it go away and make me happy again? Why does it seem that I am nothing without you? That my heart is shattered every time I see you whisper in her ear, tug on her curls, laugh with her? Why can't it stop? Why is it because of you?
No matter how broken you think you are, I will always wait for you so I can mend you. No matter how long that takes.
I'm single, but my heart's taken.
S(he) w(i)ll alway(s) be (in love with) that special (someone) , som(e)one who she (l)ove(s) with all h(e)r heart.
(A/N : I made this up all by myself in 5 minutes with no prior thought. Internal high-five :) )
My happily-ever-after never came for me, yet my story is finished.
You didn't realize just how much I cared. Not a clue. All those hugs and platonic kisses on the cheek, sleeping in the same bed as if we were five again, holding my hand, touching me - my skin would set on fire every time you did. Every single thing you did hurt, but to keep you happy, I forced on a smile and moved on, even if my heart didn't agree. It hurt, you know. Knowing that we would be nothing more than friends. It hurt more than I thought it would.
I'm cursed to love someone who will never love me back. But I can't find it in myself to blame you, or even my heart for choosing you.
When I told you that I loved you, that you were my world, you didn't say "me too." Little did you know you not only broke my heart, but my world as well.
It is said that the more you say a word, the less it will mean. Every night I stay awake, saying your name over and over so you can mean less to me. It never works.
Finished. After a lot of brain-draining writing, I'm done.
Wow. That was by far my most favourite chapter to write. Please comment/review! It'd make my day :)
P.S. The next chapter is a more positive one. I just felt the need to write angst today.
Ciao,
CecilyLightwood2002
