1. Best friend to boyfriend A Jack and Cormac fan fic.

When you realize you're a girl :')

I finish unpacking and look around at the apartment room. I take a deep breath and close my eyes for a second. For once everything is turning out to be okay. My life, friends, and boyfriend. Everything just seems to be perfect.

My eyes flutter open and I see Monica standing in the doorway or my room, a cheesy grin plastered on her face.

"Um, can I help you?" I laugh looking at her odd expression.

"Well I just thought you'd like to see the email the boys sent me but ya know if you're to busy I can show you later".

I run out the bedroom door before she can finish her sentence her not far behind me. I sit down on the couch, pulling the lap-top onto my knees scroll through the romantic cheesy email. I wipe a tear from my eye and look at Monica who has the same grin still plastered on her face.

"Holidays looking good eh?" She giggles sitting down beside me.

We end up making popcorn and watching a scary movie on the couch for the night looking forward to tomorrow.

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I yawn. Not wanting to get up. I get out of bed the sun blinding through the curtains. I slip on a pair of denim shorts and an American styled crop top and brush my hair. Perfect. I slip on my sandals and walk out to the kitchen pouring myself a glass of orange juice. Yum orange juice. I wait for Monica to get ready and then we head for the beach. Sandals off, the softness of the sand sinking into my toes.

"Ew I hate sand", Monica complains.

"How could you hate sand?" I question in utter shock.

"Makes my toes itchy like ew toes cringe".

I laugh. Oh Monica. We link arms and continue our walk down the beach till we reach a bar with loads of people outside. Never saw a bar on a beach before. I pay for two cokes handing one to Monica. We sit down.

"Mmm", Monica says.

"What?" I giggle, the coke or that lads ass your gawping at. You have a boyfriend Monica!" I yell swatting her.

"I'm just looking sheesh, no crime there Honey", she laughs "I'm sure your having a look to and I bet the lads are having a right awl look themselves. Wouldn't blame them!"

I give a fake little laugh a bit hurt at Monica's comment about the boys. I mean would they look? Why do I even care? Okay forget about it don't let it ruin the holiday. A few lads walk past and wolf-whistle, Monica battering her eyelashes at them me just scowling.

"Lighten up a bit babe! There just having some fun", Monica huffs.

She is right. I need to stop being such a spoiler and just have fun! Another group of lads come over to us and sit down smiling.

"Howya lads," I say smiling a cheesy grin.

"Hello ladies," one of them says, winking at us. "Your not from around here are ye?"

"No," Monica replies looking love-struck I mean I couldn't blame her sure the fella was tall tanned and muscular no top on showing off.

No no think of Jack.

"Maybe me and my two friends Heath and Liam could be your private free tour guides, guessing shopping would be an idea for a first place?" The guy questions.

"Sure!" Monica speaks hoping up and following Heath and Liam.

"My names Nate by the way", he says sticking out his hand.

"I'm Honey" I reply shaking his big sturdy hand.

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I was wrecked by the time we got back to the apartment. We had a whole day of just shopping and tomorrow Monica, the lads and I are going sight seeing. Whoo bring it on. I curl up on the end of the couch in pajama bottoms and a light tank top, hair pulled back into a messy bun. Monica on the other end of the couch was the same. We were sharing a pack of Oreos the best food in the world and watching tv.

Breaking news : Has Jack from Jack and Cormac got his eye on a lady. Pictures of Jack and Steph Ryan have been taken leaving the restaurant in UK. Wonder how long it'll last?

I freeze, not that I could move curled up on the couch. Monica looks at me stunned for words. I slip out the patio door to get some fresh air, the sun setting. I make my way down the beach sitting down on the sand, the tears threatening to spill. I feel a figure hover above me then look to see Nate taking a seat beside me.

"You okay?" he questions staring at me.

"No", I sniffle. "My boyfriend goes to the UK to preform and within one day he's all over the news with this other girl. New girlfriend obviously."

I could not stop the tears coming then. And they wouldn't stop.

"Hey hey don't cry", Nate soothes patting my shoulder. " The paparazzi get a lot of things wrong. Ask him about it Honey."

"What's the point, I saw the pictures what more proof do I need?"

Suddenly Monica runs along the beach, phone in hand.

"Jack's been trying to ring you Honey, he sent like fifteen emails and you have like thirty miss calls. Talk to him."

I press the call button and wait for the sound of his voice. And there it was. All the anger pain and everything washes away. He told me Steph was a second cousin of his and that he met family over there which he'd show pictures of when he got back that he loved me and no one could replace me and he'd see me when he got back. I take a deep breath and just realized I'm such a girl. Wow we do take everything for granted. Don't know what we have until it's gone or nearly is. Missing all the times and replaying all the memories. Nothing could change a girl but knowing how much we take things for granted sickens me how we can't change it. And for once I hate being me, wishing I hadn't judged him like that realizing I need to change who I am won't change anything. He likes me for who I am and that's all that matters. I could not ask for anyone better then him and never will. Maybe I didn't think I'd fall but maybe I already had and now I'm in to deep, a little to deep and no matter what, I'm stuck I won't get out without a fight but I'll stay for as long as I have to. Hopefully he feels the same way but for some reason, I know he does.

Author's note ..

Ok heya<3 I worked really had on this chapter to and hope ye like this one. Had no music to help me here. Wish I had it though.

Just want to dedicate this chapter to the best cousin in the world. If it wasn't for her I'd be down in the dumps a lot and I'm just glad I have her to bring me back up again.

No matter what I love you and 'm so proud of you little first year all grown up :') I'm really proud to be your cousin and I love you.

And I also want to dedicate this chapter to people who have lost something. It's hard, I know but you will have someone to pick you up to get you through it :) Don't worry. Everything changes, it's life and there's nothing you can do about it. But talk to people about it. Don't keep it bottled up and then whatever or whoever you lost, will realize what there missing out on. But try to find someone who know's what your worth now, not what your worth once there gone. Message me anytime for advise if you need it<3

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