After our little family reunion, I decided to go to my room and wash up. I opened the door and everything looked the same as the day I left. One item held my gaze as I slowly walked towards my bed. "The clock, our clock, his clock" the same clock he publically gave me during my show. Then the same phrase racked in my memory, " time will decide what's best for us." I heaved a big sigh and looked through my closet to see if there was an empty box. I was in luck. I took the clock in my hands and took one last glimpse and placed it in the box. I also gathered all the items that he gave me from shoes, jewelry, watches, and stuff animals and placed them in the box as well. Lastly, I opened the final item to be returned. It's brightness still captured me, but everything it stood for was gone. I took one last look and placed it in the box with others and sealed it. Writing my final words to him, I felt lighter like a huge grey cloud was removed from head. I re-read the card:
"These belong to you. I can no longer accept these gifts. Thank you for bringing me such joy though it was only for a brief moment, I'll remember our times together. May you find what you're looking for and maybe one day we shall meet again. Until now, it's time to let go."
I place the card on the box and asked our driver to drop it off at his house.
I went back to my room and unpacked several items. However, I found a bag that I wasn't familiar with and I didn't recall going to this store during my vacation. I pulled out what looked to be a heart shaped miniature pillow and inscribed was the word "voce," which in Portuguese means "you." Also in the bag was a note and I smiled upon reading it,
" Sars, in moments like this, in order to regain our strength, we must find happiness within ourselves. You have to love yourself and start with you. It's your time, live and let God show you the path to your destiny . Love will find its way when you least expect it, and when it does, we hope it's everything you hoped for and more. You deserve to be loved from the moon and back, to infinity. The right guy will find his way to you, but for now it's your time, no one else; just you - shine bright like a diamond. "
Love,
Kace, Teacher G, & Ate Garlic
I felt a tear fall down my cheek and smiled, I hugged the pillow. They were right, it's my time, this time it's just me.
