Tragic

depression poems cont.

Goodbye

The depths of hell racing through my mind

i cannot confide with time

condescending relenting all odds against myself

and one another

you see i cannot understand the fact of who what why where when,

i am a broken bird hit by a broken stone wishing to be alone,

but not wanting the silence and feel of loneliness.

Thou to feel okay and not be ashamed of who i once was and who i am today.

Putting the con in conformity

And dashing every child with shame and guilt

Putting the booming resentful hating beats of the crashing sounds of society

Building walls up like in my mind

All this time

Building my hiding place

Don't you understand

I have control of my mind

With my mind i can fly

And when i fly

I have wings

That is one of the most marvelous things

To be able to feel free and float like a bird

But you see I opened my god damned eyes

To realize it was all a dream

Defeating the resentful hate of society

Will no longer be allowed

The white wings are gone

And the black wings became torn

No longer stuck at ease

Society got ahold of me

Got ahold of me and ripped me limb from limb

Trying to stay strong

To hold on

To be alive

But you see. My alive isn't even fucking exsisting anymore

Its sitting in the bathroom behind that closed door with that knife in my hand

Wondering why the fuck the demons get to take a stand

But they take their stand in my hand when the blood spills and

My mind becomes fine

When there scilent and I'm left there bleeding

Screaming

Hoping to resign

My time on this world

So I'm saying goodbye

Crimson rain and poison tears
Rain rain go away
Because of you the pain will stay
Knives and pens
Slits and cuts
Driving pain
Kissing lips
Hell bent
Fucked over
Down under
The end of time
To call this world mine
It's my loss
I fought
Fucked over again and again
Can't you see my life's just a fucking dream
All the fairy tales and happily ever after
Please don't start
Hating self
Shame and guilt
Nothing but bones
Shows no remorse
Gun in hand
Final step
Take a stand
And jump off
Wanting free
Crimson blood
Ending the story
With one more thing the fake face of a day to day life
Smile. You want to seem happy