August 4th

7: Reveal the truth

                 

As February passed along with March, Dean's feelings had grown to extreme and he gave up on denying that he didn't love Jimmy. He loved Jimmy a lot. He finally admitted it to himself and it felt as if a giant weight had been lifted off his shoulders. He just had to find a way to tell Jimmy. He didn't know how he would react at all so it was very nerve racking. That weight that was just lifted off his shoulders came back and it hasn't even been 5 minutes.

I can't do it during any school because I've had enough of rumors to last a lifetime so I have to wait for summer. That's a long way away now that I think about it. Oh well it's my problem. I guess I cou-Dean thought to himself one day at the end of March sometime and a teacher called on him.

"What?" Dean said.

"I said 'What is the answer to number 4?'" Mrs. Edwards said with her glasses down on the tip of her nose. She was rude to everybody not just Dean.

"Um... I don't know." Dean said.

"Pay attention then or punishment will be given." She said and turned around to the board to tell the class what the answer was and explaining how to get it. Dean rolled his eyes and sighed.

Dean paid attention for the rest of his classes all day for fear of teachers seeing him thinking and asking him what he was thinking about. Dean would be able to make up an excuse but it would be guaranteed to be bad.

Around the middle of April Jimmy was home alone working on complex math homework and he was thinking of all the great memories he had with Dean because math isn't the most fun subject. That feeling in his heart that had been there for a while was in his stomach too. Jimmy thought it was nerves for messing up around Dean then he realized that most friends don't worry about messing up in front of each other so it occurred to Jimmy that it was something different. Jimmy knew exactly what it was and he realized that he'd been avoiding that feeling for as long he could remember. He didn't know how to feel about it, the avoiding.

Maybe it's not what I think it is. Maybe it's something else. Jimmy paused for a long time and tried thinking of any other thing it could be and he couldn't come up with anything else but what else could it be? Jimmy shoved that thought away for the rest of the time he was working on homework. His grades were very important.

Later he kept thinking about Dean and what he was thinking about him when he was doing his homework.

What if I do? What would be so wrong with that? Jimmy paused I do enjoy hanging out around Dean, talking to Dean, hearing him talk, seeing him talk, I enjoy everything about Dean. I think I love him. Jimmy thought for awhile of what he just thought and he couldn't avoid his feelings anymore.

"I love Dean" Jimmy whispered to himself and he blushed as he fell asleep with the image of Dean smiling at him. It didn't occur to Jimmy until the morning that he didn't know how Dean felt about him he would have to ask him. Probably not any time soon. Jimmy didn't want any more rumors going through the school.

Friends or more than friends? That question echoed throughout his mind for the rest of the school year as he sat by Dean in most of his classes and talked to him at lunch.

Around the end of the school year Jimmy and Dean were acting weird towards each other and they both knew it and a few other people noticed but they really didn't care. They would stutter a lot, avoid eye contact, and other stuff like that.

Summer rolled around and the boys were totally normal around everybody else except each other. They still hung out but it was usually pretty awkward no matter what. Most of the time they brought Sam with them and when Sam came along Gabriel came too. Dean couldn't believe that they still hung out but it really didn't bother him all that much seeing how Gabriel was his tutor 6 years ago. It was mildly suspicious the way the talked to each other and they way they acted around each other.

Nevertheless it was pretty great hanging out with Gabriel. He had these great pranks he would play on random people and their reactions were the best. Sometimes the weather wouldn't be the right kind for the prank so they would just talk and Gabriel would sometimes tell stories of other pranks he did before and other stories would be backfired pranks and those ones were the best.

June and July passed like that with the occasional band practice or football practice and a week of band camp and during that same week there was football camp somewhere else. Jimmy and Dean both had fun at camp but they felt... lonely. By feeling that they couldn't wait to come home and see one another again. When they did they felt as if they had just got a water break after a long, hot day of practice. That's how they felt on the inside but they showed none of it on the outside except a smile when they reunited and a few stories from football camp because what happens at band camp stays at band camp.

Dean finally thought of the perfect day to tell Jimmy how he felt- August 4th, the day they met. It was only days away.

Jimmy could sense that something was up when he got back from band camp and it got weirder and weirder as the days went on but he didn't really care all that much.

They hung out a lot on together without Sam or Gabriel after football camp and band camp and before Dean knew it, it was August 4th.

Jimmy and Dean went to the park all day that day and Dean talked and talked while Jimmy didn't say much but nodded in agreement, just like the walk back from the park so long ago.

"What's today?" Dean asked Jimmy as they sat on the squeaky swings. Dean never remembered what day it was but Jimmy always did. But for once Dean actually knew what day it was.

"August 4th. Why?" Jimmy said.

"It's an important date."Dean said then went on to talking about great memories of the past on August 4th, the sleepover, and every other one that he could think of. That went on until the sun was falling in the sky and Dean was getting more nervous because he had to tell Jimmy how he feels today or he might not for a long time and Dean did not want to wait. It was going to kill him if he didn't.

"Uh... Jimmy? I have something really important to tell you." I hope he'll still like me after this Dean thought

"I do too actually." I hope he'll still like me after this Jimmy thought "But you can go first."

"Ok... uh... so..." Dean paused and rubbed the back of his neck feeling extremely nervous. "I've been meaning to tell you this for a long time and I just want you to know that I don't want to ruin the great friendship that we have but... um... I kinda do in a different way. I really like you." Dean looked up to see what Jimmy's reaction is and Dean got what he least expected.

Jimmy just stared at him, his face unreadable "Like like-like?" There wasn't a definite yes or no. That was a scary thought.

"Like... love."

Silence and solid eye contact.

"I feel the same way towards you and I have for a very long time." Jimmy said and both of the boys looked at the sunset and it felt as if their hearts would burst out of the chests at any moment.

There was a long awkward pause where neither of the boys said anything. They had to wrap their minds around what had just happened. The impossible happened and it felt as if they were going to wake up at any moment. "So, does this make us a couple now?" Dean asked and looked up at Jimmy.

"I think so." Jimmy said looking back to at Dean.

"What do you want to do now?" Dean said after a couple seconds.

"I have no idea." Jimmy said.

"Neither do I." Dean said.

They laughed. What a new beginning. The reactions from everybody and the future was so unpredictable.