ALL ABOUT ALIAH

TEENAGERS SCARE THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF ME?

I love being a kid but I think most people as a kid wishes for them to grow up faster. Indeed I was one of them. I have always wanted to go out without permission where to go and what shit I am gonna do. & It's the fact they always say "NO" made me wish I was a grown woman already. When I turned 13 everything has changed. Apparently, There were lots of perks of being the baby a.k.a. youngest of the family for me, but the disadvantages will make you go crazy. They would all boss you around, would use you for dates (tell our parents were gonna go see this movie I have been wanting to see and I ended up waiting in a McDonalds playhouse for couple of hours for them to see their movie! I know, don't pity me), make you confess over what you didn't actually do so that they could get away with it (oh trust me, they didn't have any conscience back then since my parents barely whoop my ass) lots of crazy things and lastly, everyone would vent and cry on you over their broken hearts. They even throw tantrums, used to steal my precious treasure (food) whenever they're bummed out and would use my secret room and locked themselves in!
The worst part? You have no idea what to tell them nor how to comfort them. So I took it back. "Teenager scares living shit out of me"
Why you do this to me? I was only like 7 or 8!

Speaking of the root of all evil. I'm kidding. That's one thing I was so curious about. I may have lots of boy though friends even when I was a kid but I never felt the so called "crush" or infatuation. Well one thing I am sure about; I am 100% woman and I was and never will be into girls. And that is why I just wanted to stay a Lil kid. Eat, play, school, play sleep, play and eat. What a life.

But I cant stop the time. Who can? Nobody. So I turned 13. Middle school was awesome. I got lots of friends. And I got myself a best friend. She's awesome and for the first time, a girl that I could get a long with my craziness and she's really mischievous so I liked her. She's always there for me but the thing is... She taught me how to be more girly. She's the kind of girl who likes boys and to flirt. I know. Doesn't sound like me at all but I guess I liked it too. Her name was Rhea. Rhea introduced me to her guy friends and of course to see if I would like any of them. Actually nobody was good enough to reach my standards. Ha. Don't judge me cause there's this one guy that she never really care to introduce to me. His name was Skye.

"Hi Skye. I know you dont know me but I am Aliah, friend of Rhea. Just want to say I like your hair." Geez. So desperate. Seriously though. I was only 13 and it's the first time I felt the infatuation they're all talking about. He's face was so nice looking and his crystal brown eyes were so infatuating. I heard hes a football player and that he loves skateboarding. Oh destiny. I love them too. The feelings he gives to me were indescribable!!!

So you see, I liked this guy. We had a funny, good, unforgettable conversation and he did find me adorable for trying to make the first move, so our friendship continued until I found out Rhea liked him.
How? She just told me that she did since she seen us really close. Closer than their friendship. Bitch. Right? Oh well better be the good person. I love this girl so...
I figured I had to stop my feelings, plus I know well assuming,
He didn't like me.
So I stopped talking to him. I stayed away, got my distance Lil by lil.

"But I like you, why are you trying to stay away from me? You just gonna toss me away just like that? Like we never felt the spark?" What the heck is this guys talking about? (Thats what I said on my mind!) Well, That's what he said when he confronted me over avoiding him at school, park, or to be thorough... Every time we crossed paths. He was so upset that I saw his eyebrows connected together and his eyes got chinky, cheeks got red but despite of it all he hugged me. Trust me I felt butterflies in my tummy but pushed him away!
I told him I don't like him, that Rhea and him belong to each other and that's why I needed to stay away. Friendship is gone. I never liked him more than as friends so get over yourself.

Ouchie. I know. But I had to. I just had to. Too much drama. First timer here. Can't handle it. HA!

"Leave me alone Rhea, you're so selfish to tell your best friend to leave me for you!" And so many hurtful things Rhea heard from Skye that day as well. I thought I was doing the right thing to let go since I treasure the friendship on both sides but...
Its so sad I lost Rhea and Skye.

I guess, Some things are really not meant to be fixed. Oh common now. Still young. So many fishes out there.
But I considered Rhea as a gem, I guess she wasn't after all.