I still love him. H.s

6

Gwen.

   Clubs are stupid, loud, and very flashy. Why do clubs seem to stink of body sweat and beer. Maybe because of the grinding. Or the people spilling beer. And damn there a girl throwing up in the corner. Why did I come?

   "Gwen sit here I'll go get u a drink" Eleanor yelled.

   I nodded. She walked of. Jamie was grinding on everyone in sight. My best friend who I barely know. I remember when we were young and laid in her bed and told stories. About the lake and boys and our families. Her stories were always that best.

   Mine consisted of what I had for super and my dad throwing into the lake. She always said how her family went on a road trip to the ocean and how her mom used to make cookies everyday.

   The story telling ended when her dad left. Back in 1976. Now we didn't sleep in her bed and we didn't tell stories. We were to old.

    I watched Harry talk to a girl. She flipped her hair and puffed up her chest. He didn't pay attention but he saw it. He looked at me out turned his attention to the college girl.

    El came with her drinks. She handed me a cup. I drank some and felt burning liquor down my throat.

     Harry can't over with the girl. Her name Ami. First year law. She had a high pitched voice. She wasn't beautiful. She wasn't even smart. I knew more about law that she did.

    Eleanor shook her head At him. Jamie came over and grabbed my hand. We went to the dance floor and she made me dance. We laughed. Niall and over and danced with us. I saw Harry grinding on the girl. I didn't dare let a boy near me. He glanced at me and I acted like I ran the world.

   At about 2 I decided I wanted to leave. Jamie said she'd catch a ride home with Niall. I left the club. The club was across the town from my house. I began to walk. By sunrise I was home and my dad was getting the paper from outside. He waved at me. I waved back. I took a breath mint out from my pocket. When I got home my breathe smelt like mint.

   My dad sat at the table in his suit. My mom was making breakfast. She smiled at me.

   "Sweetheart you look rough" she said.

   "I know I had a late night studying" I said.

   "You should go sleep" my dad said. "I'll be home at 5"

    "Early?" I asked.

    "Yeah we are going to super" he said.

   I nodded. My mom turned around and crossed her arms.

   "Doesn't that sound great" she smiled.

    "Yeah" I said. "But I'm gonna go have a sleep."

   Before I left I kissed my dads cheek. When I got to my room I changed into a pair of shorts with a whole bunch of with moose, a tee shirt that said 'love', and I put my hair in a messy bun.

   I fell asleep and had a dream I was kissing Harry styles.  I was awoken by someone sitting on my bed. I opened my eyes and Gail was sitting there. She got up and opened my blinds.

   I covered my eyes with my pillow. She laughed. I scrunched my nose.

   "What are you wearing tonight?" She asked.

   "Umm my black dress with the long sleeves and belt." I said. "A pair of black high heels and I'm gonna curl my hair"

    "What should I wear than?" She asked.

    "Your floral pink dress with a pair of tights, your cardigan, a pair of combat boots, and a crown braid." I said.

   "Thanks your the best" she said. She got up but before she left she stopped at the door. "Someone's on the phone for you"

   I hopped up and ran downstairs. I ran to the phone and saw my mom watching tv. She was folding laundry. I answered the phone that had been on hold.

   "Hello" I said.

   "Hey" Jamie's voice rang through the phone.

   "Oh hey what's up" I said.

   "You forgot your gym bag at the house do you want me to bring it over?" She asked.

    "No I'll come get it" I said.
  
    "Okay I'll be home in like 5 minutes" she said.

    "Okay bye" I said and hung up.

   She was nothingness but a distant stranger. The girl I thought I knew everything about was now nothing to me. Her drinking and partying scared me but I didn't say anything.

   I went to the door that led into the living room. My moms turned around after seeing my reflection in the glass of the black screen.

   "Darling what can I do for you?" She asked.

   "I forgot my beg at Jamie's" I said. "So I'm gonna go get it and I'll be home in like 30 minutes to an hour."

   "Okay" she said. "Be careful"

   "I will." I said. I ran upstairs and slipped on a pair of leggings and grabbed a sweater.

   I left through the back door and ran to her house. I knocked in the door and there was no answer. I knocked again and again no answer. I looked inside and it was all dark. I sat down on the stairs and waited.

   After an hour of waiting I was bout to give up and than she pulled in. She had Niall at her side. She threw me my gym bag.

   "You said 5 minutes" I said annoyed.

   "Sorry I got busy" she laughed looking at Niall.

   "This stupid" I said before leaving with my gym bag. She shook her head and kissed Niall.

    I cringed. I turned the corner. For some reason the walk home felt like hours like I could never get far enough away from her and that house and Niall.

   When I got home it was 12. My mom was making lunch. Sandwiches and chicken soup.

   I smiled at her. She smiled and continued cooking.

   I went to my room and looked at my homework, tidied up my room, did laundry, and rearranged my bookshelf,makeup case, and my desk.

  My mom called me down and I went and ate lunch with them. As I sipped my spoonful of soup the phone rang.

  My mom stood up and answered it. She talked quietly than let out a frustrated sigh. She than came in smiling.

  "Your brother says hello" she said.

  "Is he coming for Christmas?" I asked.

  "Yeah but he is coming in tomorrow" she said.

   "That's great" Gail said. She and I made eye contact. We smiled.

   "I suppose so" my mom said.

   Gail and I shrugged. Unaware of the family drama about to come.