The Minor Key

Impossibilities

AN:
This is different than anything I've written before. Its more free verse, more story-like, more open for interpretation, it has a beat to it almost like a rap. If you can't find the beat reading it in your head try reading it aloud. Anyways, this is what happens when I get nostalgic at 11:41 at night. Enjoy <3

Over the past years things have gotten harder
But I still believe in chances
And I still am getting smarter
Cause every little action speaks a thousand words
And every little sentence helps and doesn't hurt

You know?

I get people who ask me what the worst part of this is,
Who look at me and say if its a story then what's his?
Well I'll answer that now if I didn't before
So please come on in I've unlocked the front door to my heart

I see no reason now to keep anything silent
I'm pretty damn flexible, my minds fairly pliant
And though I'm reliant, I can still be defiant and smiling compliant
For my book is a giant

You know?

I was born to a family dumped down in despair
My father alcoholic my mum didn't care
My brother and I were left for ourselves
Until that dark day he took the gun off the shelf

He was angry and shouting and obviously drunk
And our mother was yelling so loud that we shrunk
Into the staircase our hands clenched in fear
our hearts they were racing our ears couldn't hear

You know?

And then came the shot, that one final straw
That shattered our world and left us to fall
You see......

We had no more parents, our folks they were dead
Our mother was gone she was shot in the head
Our father was crazy so we ran far away
And hid at our aunts till she gave us away
We lived at the orphanage we made our own way
Then Jack he got sick and the jerks wouldn't pay

He was young and was weak and he couldn't stand up
I was young I was young but I had to holdup
A young kid acting old, had to be a grownup
And then Jack was gone and I had to backup

You see.....

That place I had been there was nothing left there
Not for me anyways, not there not that day
I was scared
I was scared
Of course I was scared
My health was declining my thoughts realigning
And then a family in America decided they cared

You see......

I had been diagnosed
With cancer
I had months at the most
So they flew me to states and I was normal, almost...

My legs would give out and it got hard to walk
I got stuck in the hospital and the nurses they'd talk
The cancer spread farther throughout my bone
But lucky for me I wasn't alone

You see....

Over the past years things have gotten harder
But I still believe in chances
And I still am getting smarter
Cause every little action speaks a thousand words
And every little sentence helps and doesn't hurt

I get people who ask me what the worst part of this is,
Who look at me and say if its a story then what's his?
Well I'll answer that now if I didn't before
So please come on in I've unlocked the front door to my heart

I see no reason now to keep anything silent
I'm pretty damn flexible, my minds fairly pliant
And though I'm reliant, I can still be defiant and smiling compliant
For my book is a giant

This is it....

The hardest part that I'm coming to,
Its not in the past I certainly knew,
It was him
It was him
It always was him
From the first time I walked in I knew it was him,

His smile
His laugh
His touch and
His look
Out of those four things I could write a whole book

He made me keep breathing when I didn't think I could
He taught me be patient
To wait for the good
To wait for the sunrise that follows the rain
To wait for the easy behind all the pain
And where is he now that I need him the most?
He's gone
God he's gone
He's no more than a ghost

And sometimes......

That thought makes me want to give up
To throw up my hands and lay back with a sigh
To give up my life and peacefully die

But I can't.....
And I won't...
For his memory lives on
For his touch on my hands
For his care of the dawn
For his smile
For his laugh
For his love
I will live

Because I am human
And because he did give,
He gave me a meaning
He gave me a light
He gave me a purpose
In my unending night

That long bloody battle I got tired of fighting
I didn't know how to say it so I'm putting it in writing......

Over the past months its been all of the above
But I still believe in chances
And I still believe in love
Cause every little action speaks a thousand words
And every little sentence helps and doesn't hurt

And every little moment is ingrained in my heart
Carved in my muscles
And stitched, for my part
I will live and for you
I will try to do good

For the hope I'll see you soon
For wish of a breakthrough
Just cause its impossible doesn't mean that its not true

Every action has a meaning
Every sentence has a story
Every word has its background
But I don't say this for the glory

You see...

I say it for love,
And only for you
Just cause its impossible doesn't mean that its not true