People don't care about others. There may be times where you may think, "Oh. They actually care about me." But they don't. It's an extreme rarity to ever find someone who will find you and stick with you. There are some people who class over-thinking shit as attention seeking. Some people feel attention deprived, especially when it's off people you want attention of. Falling into a routine of being with someone every day, feeling so happy about life, for them to one day 'change their mind'. Worthless, pathetic, stupid. That's all I am, after acknowledging people take advantage of me, I still let them. I know I'm gonna get hurt, it's gonna feel like a bullet through the chest to see you with someone else. Your attention on them, wondering where you have gone wrong. The feeling you are losing them forever, they've left now. I pretend not to care, but when I see you, every flirtatious word not spoken to me drills knives into my body. I hate myself for letting you go, for letting you see the real me so you had to go. Only me, myself and I push people away. The pain of jealousy, self-loathing, sadness and anger builds into a fury I take out on only myself. I'm not your everything, so I'm not anything. I miss me, before you.
