AUTHORS NOTE: there may be triggers in this chapter (self-harm/suicide) stay safe💕
I sat down at our lunch table, didn't have much food.
I also felt like I didn't have much of a purpose.
But as I had my best friend sitting next to me, and my other friends sitting by me my life didn't seem that bad.
From afar.
Up close it was a nightmare.
I have Borderline Personality Disorder and I very distorted perception of reality.
I have always (and will always) believed that everyone hates me and they're all just messing with my head.
I've never felt loved. I don't know if I ever will.
My mother is either never home or always on the phone; and my dad lives across the country.
I smile as I imagine slitting my wrists later, the blood dripping from my freshly cut skin. I find comfort in the pain.
Raina taps my shoulder "Hey, you okay?"
She has no clue.
"Yeah I'm fine" I lied, I was fairly good at lying.
I love her, but she can't know. She'll never know.
Amanda and Tate were chatting away while Diana watched YouTube on her phone.
Raina smiled and returned to eating her PBJ.
No one knew my secret and I lived for it.
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