Behind The Camera (PHAN)

Bisexual

(DAN'S POV)
Did I do it again? I let my head get ahead of the rest of my conciousness and now I'm hugging Phil. Phil Lester. I opened my eyes to find myself pressed into his messy hair.
"Yes. I will," he said.
He will what? Be my friend? I suppose it doesn't matter. I just want to stay here for a long time. I hugged him tighter. A happy, warm feeling spread throughout my entire body. I kind of wanted to kiss him. There was no denying that he was cute and that he had a sweet, lovable personality. For a moment I wondered what it would be like to date him. Phil broke the hug and looked at me curiously.
"Dan?"
I looked away, embarrassed and angry. Why do I keep doing these things? Why do I have these feelings for Phil? I'm not gay!
"Sorry," I muttered, scooting as far away from him as possible. I need to stop this. Now.
But then the older boy was at my side, grabbing my hand and whispering in my ear, "Dan, it's okay. Don't worry about it. I- I like you too." He sounded hesitant, like I wouldn't accept him for that. Of course I would.
I was right. Phil really is a great friend. Maybe he is more than a friend. Don't get ahead of yourself, Dan. You've only seen him twice. Although, a lot has happened between us, aside from our meetings. I know him. I know him from his videos, from our multitudes of Skype calls, his posts, our online chats, and now from actually meeting him. I can't belive that I thought he would be mad at me for someting like my actions. No, Phil isn't that kind of person.
I'm worried though, worried that I'm going to mess something up, that I'm going to hurt him in some way and we're going to end up not liking each other anymore. I don't want that to happen, but... If I don't do anything... Do I really want this to become more than just a friendship? I'm certainly not gay, maybe bi, but I've never felt this way about anyone else, not even my many girlfriends...
I made up my mind. I mean, it's a stupid thing to do, but what do I have to lose? Not my virginity surely... Maybe a friend, but I don't care anymore. Plus, if Phil is really the person I think he is, then-
Slowly, I leaned over and kissed Phil, square on the lips. His were soft, pliable, and very sweet. This felt right. This was supposed to happen. Then he made a slight 'mmph!' And then pulled away.
"Phil...?"
"I'm sorry- I didn't- I wasn't ready-" He looked flustered. Suddenly, I became aware of the fact that he was grasping my hand very tightly, as if he was trying to hold on to reality or something.
"Are you o-?"
"Dan. I want to tell you something." He said, very suddenly. I began to worry. What if he didn't actually like me? "I- I'm-"
afraid of what he would say next, I asked tentatively, "what?"
"I'm bi. Um. Or at least, I think I am."
Oh. I thought it was going to be something else. Like my rejection. But, this is fine. It's good.
"Well, I think I'm bi too. But I haven't told anyone about it... and I recently figured it out."
Phil grinned. "Well then..." and this time he leaned in and kissed me. His soft lips enveloped mine, and again I developed a feeling of complete ecstasy. Deepening the kiss, Phil ran his hand up my back and pulled me impossibly closer. I closed my eyes, feeling his strong hand against my skin. A slight moan escaped my lips. What's wrong with me? Phil pulled away and giggled, a new look in his eyes. "I bet you liked that," he said.
Deciding to play his little game, I replied, "Indeed I did, Phillip Lester. Oh, and in case you were wondering, I think I like you too."
The look disappeared and he grinned adorably. "So, do you want to play Crash Bandicoot now that that's done?"
I sighed internally. "Yes, Phil."
"Let's go!"
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To be completely honest, we didn't spend a lot of quality time playing, mostly just cuddling and awkwardly getting in each other's way- I was practically sitting on top of Phil. We made the promise to not tell our fans about this, as I, almost completely new to this gayness, wasn't sure if I wanted to tell anyone. Plus, I didn't really want any of my homophobic fans to judge me- I'm worried that they won't take it well.
All good things have to come to an end, just as my visit with Phil did. I had to leave, but was heartened with the promise of the making of the Q and A video, which was happening soon.

**(A/N: OkAy oKaY I know this is happening very quickly. I do think that their relationship irl was like that, (no shit though) BUT DRAMA IS TO ENSUE. Not in the next chapter or two, but CeRtAiNly SoOn (for all you drama freaks). I think I'm having a writers block or something because I've been really excited for the next story part? And I want to write it? Like a lot? Also, I have 100 reads already?! Damn, wow I never thought my writing was that good, so thanks! See y'all! -Aud)