The past to you

hi my name is catrina i live in a town with my friends called garen. My parents died when i was 4 and my big brother took care of me till he died when i was 10 i took care of my self after that. it was not as hard as you might think. i love living by my self its quiet sometimes its hard to find work to do but i have made it for 7 years on my own. 

i know what you are thinking i feel so bad for her how does she do it. well i will let you in on a little secret even when my parents were alive there were never there to take care of me there were out on business. my brother was always bringing girls home or going out with friends so i was on my own for a long time. anyway after my brother died i wait to his funeral his friends planned. there was a lady in a suit coming over to me she looked like a assistant. "are you miss catrina" she ask me.

i didn't know what to say so i just looked at her clearly confused. after i didn't answer she asked again..

it took all my courage to answer her question "yes" i said my voice cracking at the end.

"hello my name is Nicole i am with children services i am here to talk to you about were you are going to live since you don't have a brother or parents to take care of you anymore" she said it all with no expression like she did not care what i was going through.

i could not answer her so i just nodded my head in response. she told me to meet her out side. after i said hi to everyone at my brothers funeral i went outside to see if she was there i was hoping she wouldn't be because i knew i would have to go live with a foster family but to my dismay she was. i walked over to her with this angry look on my face hoping she didn't see it. we sat on the steps out side "do you have anyone to live with" i looked at her unable to answer her so i shook my head in response."then i have to put you in a foster home" i looked at her i knew she would have to do that but i was so not going to go stay with someone who is going to be rude to me and treat me like a disowned kid. so i did something extreme i started to hyperventilate. she looked at me confused and i 'tryed' to say water she nodded understanding what i was saying.

after she left i ran as fast as i could to my old house the one my parents lived in before the car crash and the one i will still live in forever no matter who comes and trys to take it i will fight back. 

when i got there i went up to my room and cryed laying on my bed. i let it all go i was think how i have no one anymore to be with me or to be with. after a hour of crying and sleeping i woke up. i went to my parents room and sat there on their bed remembering all the times i got scarde in my bed room alone and came to lay with them.

i thought of all the things me and my brother have been through and were he would be now. i went down to the kitchen and looked for somthing to eat there was nothing to satisfy my hunger there was a small bag of chips, bread, and water so i went to my stash of saved money i saved since i was 3 and had a feeling i would be even more on my own then before. i took out a 10 dollor bill and started walking to the store down the street. i walked in and grabed a big bag of chips,a cold drink, some cheese, and bolony.