It All Started With A Kiss (Continuation)

Depression

I managed to get to sleep about 2am, but I woke up hours later tossing and turning while having a nightmare. I jolt up breathing heavy, and emotion comes over me suddenly. I put my face in my hands and sit there for a while, before deciding to get up carefully to not wake up a still sleeping Alex. I grab a hoodie from my bag and slip it on along with slippers and head outside onto the balcony for some air, not caring if it's cold or not. I stand out there for a while, just watching the cars go by and whatnot. I'm too wrapped up in my thoughts, that I didn't hear the door open and close or notice Alex standing next to me. He moves over and slides his arms around me, burying his face in my neck.

"What're you doing out here?" He mumbles.

"I had to get some air."

"You okay?"

I shrug.

"You can tell me..."

"Nightmares." I sigh.

"I wish I could just make them not happen for you, I really do."

"I know you do. I appreciate the thought."

"It's what I'm here for. Now you should come back inside before you catch a cold in this weather. It's not exactly Florida or California weather out here."

"Alright." I let him pull me back inside.

"I'm sure you're still tired.."

"Yeah, I really didn't get to sleep until 2am."

"Come on, back to bed." He says.

"I can't guarantee I'll sleep peacefully."

"I know but you should try." He says, kissing the top of my head.

"I'll will, I'll try." I nod, climbing back into the bed.

Alex climbs in and wraps me in his arms. I try going back to sleep, several times but images just flowed through my mind which caused me to stay awake while laying there, and Alex went back to sleep. I lay there, occasionally drifting off for a but, only to get woken up again. I sigh, and hide my face in the pillow ignoring all surroundings. A few hours later, I did notice Alex get up to get changed for the day but I stayed in bed. Obviously by this time Aly and Mike are up and she sends me a text asking me how I was feeling today. I just looked at my phone and didn't answer...puttingit  back down on the side table. Alex sits beside me.

"Come on, time to get up."

I just shake my head and shift to my other side, looking towards the door, my back to him.

"Carly..." He sighs.

I want to answer him, but I choose not to and continue staring off into space. He rolls me back over.

"I'm not letting you do this." He says firmly.

"Out of bed. Let's go."

"...fine..." I mumble, getting up and going over to my bag, grabbing just any old thing to change into.

"We're going to breakfast." Alex says when I come out.

I nod faintly, before following him out the door and staying mostly silent the whole time. He hugs me to his side as we walk, watching me with a frown. Meanwhile back in Mike and Aly's room, she's sitting on the bed waiting for me to respond to the text, but I never do. She sits cross legged on the bed, watching her phone while biting her lip and twisting her rings. A half hour passes and still no response.

"Mike?"

"Yeah?"

"I'm worried...really worried." She looks up with watery eyes.