Lustful Dreams

Chapter 44

Lustful Dreams
Chapter 44

After not hearing from Norman all day and night, Kat decided to go and see him. Plenty of talk with Nina made her realize how wrong she had been. Norman had been open and honest the entire time they were together, there was no reason for him to lie. So she took a shower, got dressed and picked up to cups of coffee from his favorite coffee shop before heading over. She spotted his Jeep and Jon's suv in the driveway, of course Jon would be here. Nina had tried many times to call and talk to him but he wasn't having any of it. She knocked on the door and waited, taking a deep breath and trying to calm her nerves, the butterflies in her stomach making her uneasy. She had nothing to loose at this point, she had already lost the best guy in the world, all she could do was try and make it right. She jumped as the door opened quickly and she was met by a hard stare from Jon. His freshly buzzed hair and his crooked nose made him look menacing, but the snarl he wore was what sealed it. He looked her up and down, not impressed with how she tried to dress up for Norman. His large arms crossed over his chest, "what the hell you want?" His voice was clipped and angry, as he should be but she wasn't gonna let him scare her away. "I'm here to talk to him." He shook his head, "ya had your chance yesterday, ya blew it." She nodded and shifted her body, trying not to cry. "yes I know but I made a mistake and wanna try to fix it." Jon scuffed in only the way he can, makes you feel insignificant. "I'm sure he don't wanna see you now, best go on home." He tried to close the door but she put her foot in the way. "Unless you're his bitch now get outta my way." His eye twitched with humor but he held his ground, blocking the doorway. There was no way she could man handle him and win. "I'm good with being his bitch, if that's what he needs. I'll be whatever he needs because he ain't got no one else." The harsh words made her flinch again, she realized that she'd have to win them both over, not just Norman. "He's got me." He let it an awful laugh, "naw, you just like everyone else. He give ya everything he's got and you leave him, I'm the only one who has his back." "I made a mistake okay, I know this but I'm here to try and fix it if he wants me to leave I wanna hear him say it." She shouted at him, she wasn't gonna give up that easily. Job just stared at her, no hint of anything remained of their brief friendship. "Leave." She heard his dark, gruffy voice, sounded like he smoked two packs of cigarettes back to back. She looked past Jon's wide frame to see Norman standing there, bare chested and arms crossed. Dark circles under his beautiful blue eyes. "Please I just wanna talk." Norman snorted, "ya I gave you that option the other day, you chose wrong, get the Fuck out." Kat jolted back, almost physically hurt by his sharp words. Jon just gave her a smile. "I'm not leaving." Norman walked forward a little to peer over Jon, "what you gotta say?" She looked at them back and forth, not wanting Jon to witness anymore of her humiliation. "Gonna tell him anyways, get on with it, ain't got all day." She elbowed past Jon and it made Norman back up a little. Jon grabbed her arm and she gave him a deadly look and he actually let go and backed off. "Just gimme a minute, she ain't much I wanna hear." Jon grunted and shut the door behind him, she was now alone with him and she couldn't find her voice.

Norman glared at her, trying to hate her but it wasn't working. He loved her even if she destroyed him with her lack of faith and ugly words. He shuffled into the kitchen to make coffee, not accepting the cup she brought for him. "What you want?" More than anything he wanted to get it over with, to put her out of his mind again like last night. "I wanted to say I was wrong and how sorry I am. I know it doesn't change anything but it's the truth." Her voice cracked and her eyes glistened a little. His heart wrenched in his chest but he forced the emotions away. "Don't matter, I'm over it." Her eyes widened, "Over it?" He nodded and drank his coffee. "yup, I'm over it all of it." "I know I made a mistake but.." He laughed darkly and set his cup down, "A mistake huh, just a simple mistake like turning your laundry pink... You're a real piece of work you know that." He shouted at her, trying to regain his thought and emotions before this broke him and he couldn't let it. "I should have believed you, especially after you were there for me when Tyler was here. You deserved the same and I couldn't give it to you." She hiccupped a sob and used her hand to cover her mouth before more escaped. "Just shows me what type of person you are, just like every other girl I've been with, should have listened to Helena when she said you were too young." Kat stepped back like he slapped her, "she knew you couldn't handle me or my shit and she was right." Norman hated agreeing with Helena at the best of time but he couldn't do this again. He watched her pace around and she pushed her hair off her to neck to dangle down her back and he noticed a dark spot right on her slender neck, a hickey. Anger and despair surged through him, he scuffed and started laughing and she turned, a questionable look on her face. He pointed to her neck, "looks like you don't want me after all huh?" She put her hand to her neck and looked away, "hope he was worth it darlin. Got over me pretty easy huh?" "No Norman it's not what you think..." "Naw don't explain, just who you are. Single now, able to Fuck anyone you want." It hurt him to say those words, to pretend it didn't bother him or Yank his heart from his chest. "S'okay, got over you pretty easily too." He knew this would hurt her and he wanted it to, wanted her to feel like he did. Kat gasped and started to cry, knowing exactly what he meant. "Who was it?" She pleaded with him to tell her, "Oh I'm sure you wouldn't know her." He barely remembered last night but knew enough to remember what had gone down. "Who was it?!" she screamed at him, her face turning pink. "Don't think you want details hun." He it up a cigarette right in the middle of his kitchen, normally he'd go outside but he didn't give a fuck. "Do you love her, is it that chick from the video or maybe it's Mya??!" He cringed at the thought of both, "Nope it wasn't them." "Then who?!!" He sighed, needed her to hurt bad enough that she'd leave. "Well if you must know, her name was Crimson and she knows just what I like." "A Hooker?!" She sounded shocked, "Naw, don't need to pay for it, women just give it to me. Was a stripper." Kat looked like a tiger getting ready to pounce and kill him, he smiled loving how it hurt her, how he was hurting right now knowing she'd been with another man. Some asshole touched her beautiful body, buried deep inside her sweetness while she gave that intoxicating moan he loved. He balled up his fists and tried not to punch anything. "Hope she was worth it." "Oh she was, let me fuck her in the ass and took every inch of me, begged for me." That's what did it, she flipped out. Swiping everything off the counter and onto the floor with a swipe of her hand. He just stood there, his guilt trying to override him and try to comfort her to say he didn't mean it. She looked at him, tears down her flushed cheeks, "You're no better than any other man out there." "Could say the same about you, spreading your legs to the first guy that comes along." Now it was her turn to laugh, she brushed her hair back to reviel the hickey, "This...was from Nina you asshole, not some random guy. I needed someone to comfort me and she was there like she always is when a guy fucks me over." Norman took a step back, he was utterly shocked...her and Nina had sex....wasn't the first time??? He swallowed back the urge to vomit after being so mean to her, rubbing Crimson in her face like that. "Happy now, guess we are over after all. I took comfort in a friend and you bury your cock in some strippers nasty ass, Fuck you." She grabbed her purse and bolted for the door. He didn't go after her, just watched her leave, probably for the last time.