My Poems

Why Do I Try

Why is it that when I try

they see it as something bad

When I succeed they throw it back in my face 

and I am left to pace

In my room

I lay on my bed

with myt imaginary meds.

wishing they were real

maybe then I wouldn't have to deal

but yet I am left to a world

but none that are real

canversastions that will never happen... again

people that I can never hold

why do I try?

just to have them tell me I have failed

with all that I have ailed

I do not know

I feel i should give up

and let them win

then will they shut up

perhaps not... 

but it could be possible

but i feel i am tied in a knot

all tied to gether

never to see my true form again

so i ask again

why do I try?

why do I try to impress them

when it's obvious they are not interested

how can i show them

that i am more then what they see

without fliping out on them.

what to do..

now i feel i can't breath

will it start again

or will it stop completely 

and leave me at peace

why do I try

especialy when I fear i might die 

in their arms is unknown

but am i able to pown

I doubt ti

because I am weak

i think i am at my peak

is this the end 

or does it still pend