Illegal love (boyxboy)

Prologue - In the dead of night.

'Oh how I loath stairs.....Why oh why are there not escalators everywhere?'

Crack.

'Ah. Right.' I thought as I pried my foot loose from the splintering gap I had just made in the rickety staircase I was dragging myself up. 'This place is a pitifully broke pit.'

When I finally reached my single room in the attic, I swung through my bedroom door,  looking forward to the sleep I was about to melt into, when I realised.....

There was a monster in my room.

 At first there was only confusion. And then panic struck.

The monster awaited on the edge of the place I slept. A dangerous, unstable monster. A monster I was terrified of. But as my mind shook off the fear, I looked more closely at the beast. It did not look evil or menacing, in fact, to an unknowing soul the monster may appear to look... weakened.

An 18 year old boy, soaking wet, his shoulders hunched and his shadowed face staring at his feet.

I knew it was an act, and in no way did my wall of caution weaken.

Until he spoke...

A soft sound, only barely audible over the sound of rain, but I heard it. It was not the sound I was expecting. It was too lost, too hurt, too.... vulnerable? Pfft. This monster wasn't vulnerable. Ever. But right now he looked like he was about to break down. Cry? No, no, that, I knew to be impossible.

"I need a hug". Were the crushing words that escaped those pale, shivering lips...

And with that my wall broke, taking my self-respect, common knowledge, and god-dammed free will with it, as I slowly, reluctantly, walked towards him. As soon as his fingertips could reach my body, he had his arms coiled around me and his head snuggled into my chest. I truly felt very uncomfortable, but I didn't back away.....

"What happened Troy?" I murmured into his hair, the words having so many meanings.

"I can't tell you." He eventually whispered into my chest.

"Why not?" I said as I pulled away to look him sceptically in the eyes. He only kept my gaze for a moment before dropping his eyes, guiltily, to the ground.

"Troy...What did you do?" I asked quietly as I moved even further, though never leaving his grasp.

"I can't tell you."

"Then maybe you shouldn't be here." I said, retreating completely and turning away....That's all I need to do. Just turn away.

"NO!"  He screams, getting up himself, his voice laced with pain and panic. He grabs my arm and spins me around to his chest where he clutches at me as if I'm about to pass straight through his fingers. Refusing to let the shivers in my body reach the surface I simply freeze.

"No, no, no I should! I belong here! Please, please Jay don't make me leave!" He mutters hopelessly.  He speaks the last words into my thick hair, sending shivers through my soul.

After all this time.....God dammit Jay!!!! After all this time....When will you ever learn.......

Sighing, I steped away only to slowly take off his soaking shirt, take his hand and lead him to the bed where we layed curling into each other as if something were trying to rip us apart. And I really wish something would divide us because for every night there is a morning.......

And damn. Imma be pissed the fuck off when it comes.