Gay One Shots [My Digital Escape]

Saving Him (Bordan)

warning: this chapter has a suicide attempt! don't read if this triggers you!

guys i know jordan lives in Australia and bryan lives in L.A. but let's just say that jordan lives in L.A. here.

*Jordan's P.O.V*

I couldn't take it anymore. I was miserable. Life just seemed to get harder and harder. What was the point, anyways? Everyone hated me, I couldn't even put on a smile without breaking down into tears.

I sat crisscrossed on my bed, choking on my own sobs. I gripped my hair, ignoring the pain it caused me. I deserved it, I deserved to die.

I glanced at my bathroom that was connected to my room, an idea coming to my head. If I ended it now, I wouldn't have to live on this hell of a planet anymore. No more school, no more bullies, no more anything. But unfortunately, I would have to leave my best friends, Shannon, Alex, Kyle, Johnnie, Jeydon, and most importantly, my boyfriend Bryan.

They didn't need me, I'm just a pain. They can live without me, it's fine. I let out a shaky breath before I stood up and clumsily made my way to the bathroom. This was it, this was the end.

I couldn't just say goodbye like this, what about all my fans? What about all of My Digital Escape?

I took out my phone, clicking on the Twitter app. I scrolled through my notifications one last time before I was gone.

@JordanSweeto- it's been amazing escapers & sweeto's. sadly things have to come to an end. this isn't the end of mde, but more of the end of my life. i'm so sorry guys, i'll see you all one day. i love every single one of you so much. thanks for everything
-jordan

considering it was too long, i took a screen shot and added it as a picture. i sent it, my notifications immediately blowing up with mentions like, "jordan it's not worth it!" and "you can't leave us like that! we love you so much jordan! please don't do it!" Tears filled my eyes as I turned my phone off, ripping open my medicine cabinet.

I pulled out a random bottle and read the label. They were painkillers, perfect.

I pulled on the cap, attempting to open it, but it wouldn't open. I started to get frustrated after moments of failure to the point where I started to throw it against the wall, but it just would not budge.

"Why won't you open?" I sobbed, chucking it against the wall one last time. I gasped as the cap broke off, all the pills spilling out. I bent down and picked up a handful, running them through my fingertips.

This was it, this was the end of Jordan Sweeto.

*Bryan's P.O.V*

I ran up the stairs of Jordan's apartment building, ignoring the people who yelled at me when I ran into them. I needed to get to Jordan before it was too late.

When I finally reached his floor, I ran as fast as I ever have to his door and flung open the door, ignoring that it created a dent in the wall. I ran towards the bathroom, tears running down my cheeks.

"Jordan! Open the f*cking door!" I yelled as I hit the door, but it wouldn't budge. After minutes of hitting the door repetitively, I finally heard the lock click. I gasped, pushing the door open.

There he was, laying on the ground about to swallow the pills.

"Stop!" I yelled, smacking his hand so the pills flew everyone. He looked at me with a mixture of anger and horror in his eyes.

"What the hell Bryan! I was finally happy!" He screamed. I wrapped my arms around him before he could bend down and swallow a pill, ignoring his continuous shoves to get me off of him. I sat down on the bathroom floor and pulled him onto my lap, hugging him with all of my strength.

"It's okay baby, I'm here," I whispered, rubbing his back. He continued to shake under my touch.

"I almost lost you," I said as a tear rolled down my cheek. "I almost lost the boy I fell in love with."

He dug his head into the crook of my neck, letting out sobs. I moved his face with my finger so he was looking at me. My heart broke at the sight of him crying, with emptiness in his eyes.

"Don't ever leave me, promise?" I crashed my lips onto his, moving my hands so they were holding his waist. He moved his hands so they were wrapped around my shoulder.

After a few moments we finally broke apart. I pressed my forehead up against his, pressing another kiss to his nose.

"I-I promise." He said.

thIS WAS SO FRICKEN SAD WHY

i hope you all enjoyed though, hopefully it wasn't too too sad (not gonna lie this is the saddest thing i've ever written)

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-grace