Fading Memories (previously Moments Later)

Chapter 2

I've always had that feeling of emptiness. Ever since this nickname started.

How can you judge someone like that? I've only dated 2 girls. Ok maybe I did have sex with a girl at the club, but I was so wasted and its only happened once!

Twice.

I've had sex twice since I've become famous.

I regretted both times too.

But with all these accusations on me for being a man whore is ridiculous.

I just don't understand it.

"Bear... please don't cry. you know I hate when you cry. cause then you make me sad. and then I start to feel like I should be crying t-too..." I hear Louis stutter the last word as I felt a drop if water hit the top of my head.

"L-Lou. please! please don't cry because if me!" I beg him as I wipe up the tear stains on my cheeks.

"See I'm all better now!" I show Lou a weak smile trying to make him believe.

If there's one thing worst then these stupid titles then its the love of my life crying because of me.

"Lou please stop." I state pulling his hands away that are covering his eyes.

He looks up at me with the sea blue colour they are and I internally melt.

Whenever he looks at me like this everything in my mind that is causing this conflict disappears like it was never there.

As if I was never given these titles.

That's one thing I love that he could do for me.

"Okay I stopped." Louis tells me sniffling in between words.

I smile towards the recovering Louis as he smiles back and takes my hand in his.

"Come on let's go watch something better." Louis tells me as he pulls me back over to the couch where he was previously laying.

Me and Louis lay down with me half on him half on his chest with him flat on his back.

"So what do you wanna watch?" Louis asks me as I look up into his eyes.

You...

"I don't care..." I tell him.

"Then how about we watch twisted cause I'm behind on some episodes?"

No. I just want to sit and talk.

"Ok." I just tell him as I lay my head back down not daring to look back in his eyes.

Oh how I loved the feeling of being in Louis's chest. being able to hear his heartbeat of its quiet enough. to me able to feel his breathing on my neck.

To feel he's there.

"Louis I'm going to go to the bathroom." I tell him as I start to get up.

Oh how much I want him to protest. To stop me from what I'm about to do. To keep me from harming myself.

To keep me safe.

"Sure thing." Louis says staying in his trance with the episode.

I walk over to the bathroom already pulling off the leather snap bracelet that me and Louis both have from out time in Florida at Islands of Adventure & Universal.

His said says 'Be the Sanity' and mine says 'Inside of Insanity' .

Strange but it's from a book we read together during the X factor days.

After I pulled that off I took off the 3 other bracelets from the rest of the boys.

We all got matching ones actually. I just always wear mine. to cover the scars.

Mine and Liam's is 'To Infinity' and his says 'And Beyond'

Mine and Niall's is 'Chicken 1' and his is 'chicken 2'

Lastly mine and Zayn's is lyrics. mine says 'Yeah You Bleed Just' and his says 'To Know You're Alive'

Truthfully I wouldn't care if the other bracelets broke or got lost accept for Louis's. his quote meant a lot to me. and it still does. he just doesn't know it.

I made it into the hall bathroom that neither of us use and close and lock the door.

I sit down on the floor and open the drawer that had just one thing in it.

I box of razors.

I pulled out the one I've been using and close the drawer again grabbing the first aid kit under the sink that has the disinfectant and gauze.

I hum to myself a tune as I slide the edge across my skin.

Then another time.

And another.

On my last time was when everything went wrong.

A knock at the bathroom door right when I was in the middle of a cut.

It slipped.

It went to deep.

"Shit!" I scream out as the sudden pain hits me and the blood starts flowing out more then it's supposed to.

"Harry?! Harry what happened?! what are you doing it there?" louis asks me frantically as I pull the towel off the towel rack to clean the blood that's dripping off me and to the floor.

I start to feel light headed as I look down to the towel and see its already full of my blood.

A white towel turned red.

"Lou?" I question as I start to not feel my arms or legs anymore.

"Harry! open the door!!" I hear Louis shout as I raise up my hand to unlock the door.

As I click the lock the last thing I know is I was now laying almost face first into the tile and the last words Louis said.

"Haz?! What have you done?!" then it all went blank...

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I'm so sorry it's short it's just I have homework and then practice and I also have an injury that I need to go to physical therapy for so I have a lot of stuff so this is just something I do when I have time.

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