11:55

Forgetting you.

I'm starting to forget the way you used to smell. The way your voice sounded at 4 am when you told me everything was going to be okay. I am starting to forget the way you arms felt when you wrapped them around me after a hard day. Or how I felt like they could protect me from anything bad in the world. I am starting to forget the way your lips felt against mine, the way that when they met I felt the strongest sense of right I had ever experienced. Nothing was wrong in the world when you kissed me. I am starting to forget the depth of your chocolate eyes, and how when I looked into them I found so much beauty in you and in myself. You had always looked at me as if I were everything. 

I am trying to forget how much hurt I felt when I was no longer enough for you. When you left. You are now telling another girl that she is beautiful. I am no longer the person you run to when you need advice or just to talk. She's the one you depend on. And I am so insignificant. And now when I look into your eyes, yours look right through me as if I never meant a thing. I used to be your whole world and now I am nothing.

Where did everything go wrong? I loved you, and you loved me. But then you walked away. 
Was it all just a lie?
A joke?

I'm not laughing.

Maybe I'm not really forgetting you. But fuck, I sure wish I could.