I lay here awake,
Trying to avoid sleep,
Fearing that I will have nightmares.
These things scar me,
I 'dream' of people betraying me.
I 'dream' of people calling me old names I wish to forget,
Along with new ones that stick.
I feel like crying,
Yet my face is dry,
Curse how I hardwired my brain.
I sob silently,
With no tears,
I live,
With no happiness.
When I say,
'I was reading fanfic!'
I mean I was tearlessly,
Sobbing myself to sleep.
I wonder if I should even fight it,
I already have scars,
A few more won't make a difference.
I am not that radiant person,
That you know me to be.
I am a freak,
A loser,
A monster.
-FluffeeKittah
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Refrain from Tricking Yourself
PoetryA happy looking book isn't what it always seems. ⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️ ~this includes things like depression, self harm, intrusive thoughts, etc. so if you think this will trigger you, please don't read it. i don't want you to get hurt. warnings are m...
