Complicated love (Ryan Dunn)

I can't let go

Bam POV
"Hey" Emily said
"Hey any news from the doctors" I ask as I wrap my arms around her
"No not yet" she said as she laid her head on my chest
"Have you seen Bonnie yet" I asked looking around
"Um actual no, I remember waking her up but I haven't seen her" Emily said. fuck not another person missing
"Knoxville have you seen Bon" I ask as Emily unwrapped her arms
"Yeah she said she was going for a drive" Knoxville said walking outside. I pull out my phone and dialled her number
"Can't talk I'm driving" I hear Bonnie say
"Where the fuck are you"
"I don't know and don't fucking care"
"Well get you fucking ass home now"
"No" she snapped at me
"Then where the fuck are so I can came get you"
"I'm not fucking telling you that" she was grumpy as shit
"Can ya just at lest go back to fucking apes" I ask
"Why the fuck would I want to do that"
"Because your fucking bad at driving like Ryan"
"Just because I fucking love ya I'm going to apes" Bonnie said as she ended the call
"Knoxville get your keys were going go get my bitch of a sister" I say as soon as I walk out side
"Where is she" Johnny said
"She's gone to apes" I say jumping into his car

****at apes****

Bonnie's POV
I pull up to apes and got out, I slammed the car door and went to get the house keys and figured out I've locked them in car
"Fuckin hell" I mumbled, I slide down the car door till I touched the ground.
I heard bam pull up, I stood up with tears in my eyes
"You fuckin scared the crap out of me" bam said
"Do you have my other car key" I ask
"Here" bam said. I grab the key and walk up to my car and unlocked and got my keys
"Why did you leave without fucking telling me" bam snapped as I throw him his keys
"Because I needed to rap my head around Ryan and knowing that tomorrow Ryan could die without saying goodbye" I say
"Don't fucking think like then, Ryan is a fighter" bam said
"But you never know" I say getting in my car
"Do you want me to came with you" bam asked
"Well get in" I say
"I'm driving" bam said grabbing my keys
"Why"
"Move over" bam snapped. I hoped over to the passenger seat as he hoped in

****at castle bam****

Bonnie's POV
"Is that the hospital" I ask as Emily got off the phone
"Yeah and its bad but good news" Emily said
"What's the bad news" I ask as I walk up to her
"Well there is actual no bad news. The doctors said that his awake and wanting to see ya" Emily said
"Bam grab your keys cause we going to see Ryan" I say jumping up and down
"Can I came" Emily asked
"Why not" I say and walked out to Bam's car, I sat in the back but I couldn't sit still
"I'm going to the hospital oh yeah oh yeah" I started say
"I've never seen her this happy since she first got drunk" I heard bam say with a giggle afterwards
"Shut up" I say and lean forward and slapped him in the arm
"Ow what was that for" bam snapped
"For being an ass" I said
"Where here" Emily said as he pulled up. I slam open the door and run inside
"Who are you here for" the office lady said
"Ryan, Ryan Matthew Dunn" I say as Emily and bam came in
"And who are you" the office lady said
"Bonnie"
"Oh you must be his girlfriend"
"Yeah"
"Right this way" she said showing the room where my boyfriend is hooked up to a hundred machines with cuts and bruises
"You can go in" Emily said probably because I was standing there at the window
"Can I go in by myself" I ask
"Go ahead sis" bam said wrapping his arm around her waist. I walk in and close the door behind me, I Walk up to him and grab his hand and sat down
"Hey Ryan" I say
"Bo....bon....bonnie" Ryan said
"Hey babe" I say getting up and sitting up on his bed
"Do you remember four days after your birthday and we you know" Ryan Said
"Yeah" I say
"Tell me the story" Ryan asked
"Ok" I say

****flashback****
I walk up to my room and flopped on to my bed
"AHHH" I screamed
"What" bam said running into my room
"Nothing now fuck off" I say and pushed him out
"Go go go" I say
"Fuckin hell, I'm going" bam snapped. Run over to my phone and see its a messenge from Ryan
Ryan: hey hun be there in a second also make sure your window is Fuckin unlocked this time
I smile and unlock the window and open it a little, I walk over to my bed then I felt my waist being pulled back
"Miss me" Ryan said
"Not a bit" I say and turned around
"Have you been crying" Ryan asked wiping my tears away
"Yeah" I say
"Do you want to talk about it" Ryan asked as he put his forehead onto mine
"No, your here and that's all that matters" I say and give him a kiss and walked to my bed and laid down with Ryan. After awhile Ryan started kissing me and moved his hand up my shirt
"Do you want to do this" I asked
"Yes now shut up and kiss me" Ryan said and started kissing my kneck as I started groaning and moaning.
"Get ready to lose that virgintiy of yours" Ryan said and unbuckled his pants
****end of flashback****
I finished explaining and one of his mechanics started going off
"Excess me ma'am but you might need to go outside" a nurse said
"Why"
"Because he stopped breathing and if we can't save him then his dead" she said. I walk out with tears forming in my eyes
"Is he OK" Emily asked
"Well if they can't save him then he dies" I say and run into Bam's arms.
"Ma'am I'm sorry but his gone, we will try again" I tried to block out everything she said but it was so hard to hear that I might of just lost the person I love the most.
"No no no no no" I say with tears pouring out of my eyes fuck
"We will try again"
Fuckin hell his gone this time he actual might be gone.

A/N: this part of was really hard to write I think I throw my phone at the ground three times