During winter break I met this boy.
He was different. The way we talked was different. Everything with him was different. Including the fact that he is currently 2,888 miles away.
All my life, I never thought distance could hurt. But it does. I never thought not talking to someone could stab you right in the heart. But it does.
The thing is, both of us knew what we were getting into. We both knew it'd be a 1 out of a million chance of ever meeting. Yet, it didn't stop us from flirting, giving each other hope, talking about our past, talking about our futures.
But then reality hit. I have a life here. He has a life there. And neither of our lives are stopping for another soul across the country.
Our first fall out...my fault.
Our second fall out...his fault.
Our third... I blame the distance.
I think of him all the time. When I wake up. When someone asks whats wrong, most the time it's him. When I fall asleep. I'll glance at the clock, and do the time difference to see what time it is there. No matter what I do, he never leaves the back of my mind.
So, to whom it may concern;
They say it takes 30 days the break a habit. Yet, I can't seem to break mine. It doesn't matter if it's been 2 weeks, or 2 years, if you text me, I'd respond in a heartbeat. Because you changed me. You made me think differently. You made the happiest girl in the nation. You took half my heart. I miss you. I really do. I miss the late night conversations, and losing sleep to stay up to talk to you. I miss smiling during Spanish class seeing that you texted me. I know I've told you how I wish we lived closer, and how much I care about you. I keep running that same line through my head when we fought, "what do you expect me to do? Sit here and fall in love with someone I'll never fucking see?" Yet, when we talked again, you told me you loved me. And love is a strong word. And love doesn't fade away. To you, my boy, I love you more than you could ever know.
For some stupid reason, I'll always be here. Waiting for whom it concerns to send their love back.
