Feeling Strange Again

Unexpected Appearance

 Music was playing and I was laying sprawled out on the bed while the rest of the guys were out. I rolled over and changed the song before I went to go feed Coco. On my way to the kitchen there was a knock on the door. I groaned making my way to the door. When I opened it I was mildly surprised to see a tattered looking man. He looked familiar but, I couldn't pinpoint who it was. Well, that was until he pulled me into his arms and started speaking. "I'm so sorry" he spoke quietly into my ear, "I didn't mean anything I said" his voice cracked this time "I love you so much, too much, to the point where I get so scared you're going to walk away and leave me for someone better, just like you did" he finished and I could feel the warmth of his tears on my shoulder. "It's okay, I won't ever leave again, but this is your last chance, okay?" I responded with a quiet voice. I felt him nod. I smiled up at him pulling away. I pressed my lips against his. The kiss was quick because of me pulling away and staring at him in disbelief. "W-Why do you taste like that?" I asked with a shaky voice. "Taste like what?" "Cigarettes" "Well...after you left I got curious, curious about why you smoked and still do, I saw the cigarette but don't deny it, anyways I just gave it a try. When I felt the stress and anxiety leave my body I put it out thinking that maybe if I didn't finish it I wouldn't get y'know...addicted, but I did." I sighed. This is all my fault. He's puffing on cancer sticks probably alone, probably crying to himself, while I'm getting high almost every night and fucking someone else. I'm such an amazing person. I pulled him back down for another hug. "Let's go home, Tae" "Okay let's." I smiled pecking his cheek before pulling him towards the room where I had been sleeping. I quickly put some clothes in my bag grabbing my phone, my wallet, and cigarettes, shoved them in my pocket and grabbed Tae's hand. "Let's go." I said whilst making my way down the hall to the front door. I turned the corner slid on my shoes and left. "Remind me to call them when we get home" I looked at Tae "I will" he smiled down at me.

We made it to the train station buying 2 tickets to Hongdae and began our wait. I felt Tae squeeze my hand. "Kookie?" "Yes?" "You know how much I love you, right?" "Yeah, I think so, why?" "Because I love you more than you'll ever know." I smiled to myself. Tae grabbed my jaw making me look at him before he pressed his lips against his. I tilted my head to the side letting him deepen the kiss, completely forgetting we were in public. I heard the announcement saying that our train was now loading. I pulled away from Tae putting a finger on his lips "Save it for later big boy, right now we have to get on a train to go home" I said. He nodded helping me up. We got our tickets punched and got settled onto the train. I looked out the window and watched the trees and buildings pass by, smiling to myself a little. I could feel someone stare at me. I giggled quietly "What's so funny?" I heard Tae say behind me. "I can feel you undressing me with your eyes" "Oh really?" "Mhm" he leaned down to whisper in my ear "Well when we get back, I'm gonna do more than undress you with my eyes." I blushed when he kissed the shell of my ear. "Tae, stop we are in public" "Doesn't matter to me, just as long as I have you." I turned around and gave him a quick kiss. "That's all you're getting for the next little while" I said. He smirked and I instantly knew what crossed his mind. "Don't even think about it, Tae, I swear to god." Before I knew it he had his face buried in my neck nibbling and kiss. I moaned leaning to the side a little giving him access. The train hit a bump and I came back to reality, we were in public. I pushed him away. "Stop it" I whined. He smirked "Whatever you say, baby boy" I blushed and hit his chest lightly.