Friends With ALOT Of Benefits

Friends With ALOT Of Benefits (part 23)

This aint good for me.. i just paid $400 for this hotel and he's here... but i run to my room and lock it fast. I could feel him looking at me ..

*knock knock* "Room service"

Ahh.. i thought it was him...

I open the door.

Ray : hey..

i push him out the door and tell him to go. but he pushes me in the room . and i see my mom callling me but i turn my phone on silent

Me : what do you want from me..

Ray : to apologize..

Me : get out!! or else

Ray : or else?...

I get out a gun.. i stole from underneath Chres's bed

Ray : Tayviah ... you dont have to do this ... *puts hands up*

Me : you raped me!!! *crying*

Ray : im SORRRRY! take what ever you want from me.. but you need to put the gun down... i hured about ur babys. and im sorry for ur lost

That pissed me off even more... So i point the gun to my head

Ray : Tayviah.. put it down

Me : NO! WHY DOES IT ALWAYS HAVE TO BE ME... IM STARTING NOT TO TRUST GOD ETHER!!

Ray : he'd be even more upset if you did this. just stop. We can get you help

Me : WE?! aint no WE.

I put my finger on the trigger ..

Ray : Tayviah .. please.. think about it..

I think.... then put the ground on the floor and ray calls the cops.

I hate myself... why cant I just DIE !!! this feeling is a new feeling.. i feel left out this world. Like every human walks past me and throws trash or dirt at me ... man fuck everybody!!! fuck you . and you and YOU! fuck my boyfriend... fuck everything 

The cops come and take me home... but they ask for my info so they can get my parents info also fot prood since i tried to kill myself..

Ray went to go find Chres and im in the back of this police car.

Police : it says they've moved to Europe .

Me : what!!? but they were just at the hospital like 4 hours ago!

Police : what is yur name again?

Me : TAYVIAH ! TAYVIAH NICHOLE SMITH !!

Police : um.. Tayviah ..

Me : what ! what happend?!

Police : it says you have been adopted by Tremaine Songz and Keisha Songz....

And here I go.. wanting to stab my self like 100 times..

Me : dont take me home! *crying*

Police : we have to bring you back to your parents Ma'am.

Me : NO!

im in pain like omg somebody just shoot me! my stomach hurts from the surgery.. my head is pounding... I try and kick the police door out . I hateeee everybody!!!

3 hours later .....

they take me home .. Because i was at the police station.

And i bang on the door because im so mad!

Mom : OMG where have you been!

she hugs me..

Police : OMG Trey Songz *whispers*

Me : how about you tell me where i'v been..

Mom : honey?! you where at the hospital !

Me : YOUR LIEING !!!!!!! WHO ARE MY REAL PARENTS!!!!

Mom : what .. do you mean

Dad : *looks down*

Mom : know what .. im done !!

Ohhh i wanna slap every damn person!!!

I walk off and ... I see Carlos ...

Carlos : uh ... Hey?

( it wasnt really long , but its longer ..)