I was happy, I felt something I didn't think I was ever going to feel this way again. I loved her...well, I still love her...nothing can change that. But it was amazing and terrifying for me. Sometimes I felt like she was ignoring me, or she didn't want to talk to me. I know that wasn't the case, my mind thought of many possibilities, however I don't know if she forgot about me from time to time. Many of my friends thought she was playing me, that she didn't love me in any way, to be honest....I chose not to believe it. She was the first person I opened up to, I let her in my world, and for a time.....she was my world. A world I couldn't touch, a world I could only see. But I was me....I wasn't meant to have a happy ending. I came to love her very much...she knew me, it scared me. I was so afraid of heartbreak and of her leaving that I chose to break it off. she was my love, I'm a romantic.... I thought she was going to be my only love....sometimes I still do. I wish I didn't feel this way.....I wish I didn't feel so.....empty. maybe things could've turned out different, maybe. The past is past, as long as I'm still a part of her life, as long as I can still be close to her...it's fine. But sometimes I wish I could change the past. Fix my mistakes
