Till Death Do Us Part (Levi Ackerman X Reader)

A Win Or Lose Situation

*PLEASE LISTEN TO THE MUSIC ON THIS ONE, IT HELPS*
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'Breathe (Y/n), Breathe. Everything will be okay.'
I look to my left, then my right.
'You have Eren, Hanji, Erwin and Levi to protect you.'
Maybe if Levi would pay attention. And not always stare at the light-ginger, Petra.
'I hate her, so much.'
"Alright Cadets, move in!" I heard the commander say. Pushing the horse forward, we all followed the orders. This, is what we have been waiting for. This, is what I have been waiting for. One day, I'll be one of humanity's strongest, just like Captain Levi! Distracted by my own thoughts, I didn't hear the screams of people telling me to move out of the way. I didn't see the pools of blood sprawled out across the grass, staining the forestry. Before I could catch my bearings, I felt a harsh force pushing me to the left. But why? When it felt safe, I opened my (E/c) eyes, the ones that I've been keeping closed. I turned my head to the direction of where I was at first, and saw blood, and Levi, I think he was the one who pushed me out of the way. Is it my blood? People were crowding around that same spot, so I pulled on the reigns, signaling my horse to go that way. I stopped once I realized what it was. It was Petra, I wished for her death. I wanted to ask a question. I wanted to know what happened, but no matter how hard I forced, the words would not come out of my mouth. They were stuck in my throat, turning it dry. I closed my mouth, and I decided it would be best if I just went back. I don't belong on the battlefield.
*TIME SKIP UNTIL EVERYONE GOES BACK TO BASE*
"Eren, what am I going to do? Now Levi is going to hate me forever!" I finally broke out and cried, with my best friend there to comfort me. "I should have been able to save myself! Petra should still be alive! I'm sorry.. I'm sorry I'-" Eren was rubbing my back as I cried, he finally stopped me mid-sentence. "(Y/n), don't worry. No matter how gifted you are, you alone can not change the world. Everything happens for a reason, so you'll be okay. Who knows, maybe now you can get closer to him." He finished his words with a wink and a hinted smile.
I attempted to stop crying to process his words. He's right, maybe it will be okay.
"Eren, How can you be so positive at a time like this?"
"Oh (Y/n), when you're in battle for so long, you come to realize it's a win or lose situation. You lose so much, which hurts, but the hurting is overwhelmed by what you've accomplished."

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