Gold In August

1.

AUGUST

Her. She was everywhere. In the hallway where I pass her locker, now covered in pictures and notes from strangers who wish'd they'd seen her light before it so brutally died out. On every street at night, she'd always loved the way the the streetlight's shine hit the pavement turning it into a radiant gold. Even on the roof of her apartment building where we'd tell each other everything, even the little things, especially the little things. She was in all of these places and everywhere else, but she wasn't here with me. But I wouldn't want her to see me right now, fading away.

Here I am in Rickey's basement, planning to smoke until I forget my name with one of the two people I can see right now without breaking down completely. Vic's the other one but he's off at his dad's tonight. Tonight's one of the last nights we have together before we move. Yesterday was the wake, tomorrow's the funeral, and after that me, Vic, and Rickey are out of here. I'm transferring to another school in another city, one without her. Vic and Rickey are coming too, Vic's moving into my Dad's with me and Rickey can if he wants to but he might just get an apartment somewhere since he's eighteen already.

"August." Rick broke me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah."

"We'll be okay, I promise man."

I stayed silent for a minute. How would I be okay? She was the love of my fucking life and I don't even have a life without her in it. The thing is I'm not even sure if I wanted to be okay because being okay means that I'm moving on, that I'm forgetting about her, and I know the memories won't ever escape the dark maze of my mind. "And being blue is better mthan being over it" I remember her singing that with her sweet voice. She usually didn't listen to rock kind of bands like Panic! at the Disco but she loved that song.

"Maybe I don't want to be okay." I said after inhaling the bitter-sweet smoke that filled my lungs and would soon cloud my thoughts completely.

"Do it for her," He said. "She would never let you fade away... You're gold, man." He mumbled as his voice got lower and lower. Soon we'd both be dreaming.

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-Tabitha