It's Complicated

Chapter 41

"Why is Mia always looking at me?"I asked Elliot.
"Because she probably knows that you are Ethan's ex and she doesn't know if you still have feelings for him which you do"he answered.
"Okay"

The next day was a weekend so I didn't go to school.
In the next week:
I saw Ethan many times and I had a lot of chances to talk to him but I didn't. I keep telling myself that I should move on and that's what I'm trying to do.

At lunch,on Monday,I was sitting at a table with my play plat husband when Ethan and one of his friends came over and sat with us.
My friend was holding my hand and I was trying to get away from him. Ethan's friend said"Stop acting like you don't want him to hold your hand"

Ethan butted in and said"True,stop acting like you don't like him"
When Ethan said this I stopped what I was doing and looked at him very long but he didn't look at me but I didn't really care.
When I looked at him I saw nothing. Questions kept on poping up in my head.

Did I really fall for this guy?
What did I see in him?
Do I really love him?
Why am I waiting on him?

I finally got free from my friend's clutches and I got up and walked away.
I went over to the rest of my friends and started talking to them about random things.
Ethan was with his friends and they were talking.
It's so weird like when I look at him at the corner of my eyes he seems to be looking at me or is it just my imagination?

He looks happy and I want him to be.
I love him but he just has to go.