My Perfect Mistake

Once More

The day after Anthony left, I cried my eyes out. I knew I had feelings for him. I just didn't want to be with him. Well, not yet. Sometimes we would talk. But it was boring. We could no longer goof around or anything. It was like something was missing. The connection.

That was it.

Thanksgiving came around. I wanted to invite him over since we were having a large family and friends meal. I didn't have the courage to do it. I don't know how awkward it would be to see him again.

After the meal Ian, his girlfriend (at the time), Cam, Nate, and I all went to Waffle House. None of us even ordered anything. Just talking there was fun. We don't even know why but we were just cruising around town. We were having a really good time. The music was playing in the car and we were all just teasing each other, thinking of old memories. I wish I wasn't there when we were talking about memories. Everything reminded of Anthony.

Nate knew how I felt about Anthony. He always comforted me and helped me through tough times. He was practically my 3rd older brother after Ian and Cam. But then Anthony wanted to FaceTime Nate. He asked me if I was okay with it since we were in the car but I didn't even care anymore so I let him. It was his choice. Just like it was Anthony's choice to leave me.

It had been forever since I heard his voice. I listened to it but I pretended not to pay attention. Not the words he said, but the way he said them.
I didn't want to talk to him even though everyone else was. I just managed to put a smile on my face and look out the window. A tear slid down my cheek but I quickly wiped it away so no one knew I was crying.
Since Ian was driving us, I asked if we could stop by the gas station. When we pulled over into a random gas station, I got out and Ian's girlfriend followed along. Whats her name again? Isn't it something like Maria? No. Wait. Oh yeah. It's Clara. I didn't even need to buy anything. I just wanted to clean up in the restroom. Before I could go in, Clara slightly grabbed my shoulder and asked me if I was okay.
"Yeah I'm fine. What makes you think I'm not?"
"Well," Clara started, "I am a girl. I understand your guy problems. I knew you weren't fine. You were just trying to be strong. You managed. And I know you were crying. I saw your hand wipe away your tears. Look Gio, you're pretty young. You don't need to be worrying about guys like him. You're better than that," she smiled at me.
"Thanks Clara, that meant a lot. It's just hard. He meant a lot to me. And he told me I meant a lot to him too, but he's already talking to a new girl. I'm pretty sure her name is Desiray. Her and Anthony were best friends but I'm sure they're more than that now." I sighed.
"That's it. We aren't going to worry about fuckboys like him. Let's go bowling okay? All of us. It'll be fun," she said.
"Sure, hopefully I can get my mind off of him," I said looking. down. "But let me go use the restroom and I'll be right out. Thanks Clara,"
"No problem Gio."

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We ended up going bowling for 2 hours. It really did help me not think about him. But when I got home, I changed into some more comfy clothes and listened to music. With you by Chris Brown came on as my eyes started filling with tears. I started drifting asleep as every memory of Anthony and I came to me.

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A/N: This broke me writing this. I'm trying to make chapters longer. hope you're enjoying this. also I'm Lowkey proud because I started writing this at 12am due to boredom and in less than 24 hours I've had 40+ views 💘