My Roomate

Im Fine

Karkat POV

I looked like shit, I felt like shit, I even smelled like shit. My clothes were stained with icecream and faygo that Gamzee lended me. My hair was a complete mess, I didn't bother to brush it. I had bigger eyebags under my eyes then usually. I was a complete mess. I havent been really outside my room for.. 1 month

This whole month was just filled with movie watching, weeping or sleeping away the pain.

I locked my room, no one could come in and I don't intend to awnser to anyone who ask if they can. I shut all the lights off and closed all the windows so light could come in. The only light coming in the room was tv that was playing the movie, TWO TROLLS WHO FALL IN LOVE ON A BOAT BUT ONE TROLL DIES FROM A ICE BERG on.

I wrapped my blanket around my whole body, no body part was showing, only my head plopped out. A bowl of ice cream was on the bed, it was already half eaten by me.

Dry red tears were left on my cheeks from the infinite crying that happened earlier. I stopped crying because I was out of tears.

I felt like complete shit right now, my whole world fell apart. It felt like, I was drowning in my own tears of sadness. I did not like the feeling of drowning. My flushed crush was flushing for some other troll, I know it. ERIDAN AMPORA WAS GOING TO KISS FUCKING SOLLUX CAPTOR.

I threw a pillow at the wall in rage when I thought about Eridan. I didnt want to be flushed for FUCKING ERIDAN ANYMORE.

I threw my head into a pillow and screamed. If There was tears left in me then I would be crying a river right now.

A small ding noise came from my pocket. Someone pestered me.

terminallyCapricious [TC] began trolling carcinoGeneticist [CG]

TC: hEy KaRbRo

CG: WHAT DO YOU WANT

TC: WeLl I dIdNt mOtHeRfUcKiNg SeE  yOu iN a LoNg TiMe AnD i JuSt WaNtEd To ChEcK iF yOuR aLl cOoL aNd ShiT

CG: IM FINE

TC: I kNoW wHeN a MoThErFuCkEr AiNt FiNe

CG: I SAID IM FINE

TC: YoU wAnT tO sIt On My HoRnPiLe aNd TaLk aBoUt It?

CG: I DO NOT WANT TO SIT ON YOU STUPID HORN PILE AND TALK ABOUT ANYTHING

TC: :o(

CG: SORRY FINE. ILL BE THERE IN 30 MINUTES

TC: :o)

carcinoGeneticist [CG] ceased trolling terminallyCapricious [TC]

I shut off my Huskpod so no one else could pester me. I layed it gently on my bed. I turned off my TV and flicked on the lights.

FUCK

My eyes shut close when the light opened. It was dark for so long that my eyes werent used to the light right now. I opened my two eyes again to try get used to the light.

I walked towards the closet but something stopped me.

GOG DAMMIT

I fell on the floor on my face. The crash caused a loud thud. I lifted my head and looked at my behind of my body, there was a stack of 42 DVD boxes. I sat up and grabbed them to see what were they were. It was all the movies I watched ever since I ran from Eridan's hive

Eridan.. Such a STUPID NAME.. And a suprisingly sexy name. GET A GRIP OF YOURSELF ASSHOLE. The drowning feeling came back to me again.

A knock came from the door

"6r9ther? Are y9u alright? I heard a thud c9me fr9m this area"

It was my brother.

"YEAH IM FINE"

"Are y9u sure? It s9unded like y9u fell"

"I SAID IM FINE"

"Well then, I will 6e leaving y9u al9ne n9w"

"YEAH THAT'LL BE GREAT, THANKS"

I stood up and went to my closet. I put on a new sleaved shirt on, and threw my stained one in my laundry basket. I grabbed a Gray jacket and wore it. I lifted the hoodie on my head and walked out my room door.

I had to look around first before I walked foward to the exit of the house. I knew he was going to ask questions about "where are you going", "why did you not go school?" Things like that

*Gamzee's hive*

I buried my head deeper into my jacket when I arrived at Gamzee's hive. My fist was over his door, getting ready to knock. I didnt want to be here right now. There was a voice in my head to go away now. I was about to turn around and walk home, until.

"HeY bEsTfRiEnD"

Gamzee opened the door before I could turn around. He was standing in his doorway with a slime pie in his hand.
He just gave his stupid smile and walked back into his hive.

I followed after him. I wanted to run outside, but I fear that I might hurt my Moirail's feelings.

His hive was scattered with empty bottles of faygo. Some slime was splattered on the walls and on the furniture.

"GAMZEE DO YOU EVEN CLEAN IN HERE?"

"WeLl, IlL cOmE tO aRoUnD tO iT"

I kicked one of the faygo bottles. The faygo bottle landed on the horn pile. A faint honk came from the horn pile.

"So Do YoU wAnT tO gEt OuR mOtHeRfUcKiNg TaLkiNg On"

"YEAH, SURE, WHATEVER"

I wasnt in the mood for talking. I wanted to crawl into my bed and rot into the depths of Derse.

Gamzee picked my up by the legs, and He put my body over his shoulder and walked towards the horn pile.

"GAMZEE, PUT ME THE FUCK DOWN!"

"Im JuSt DoInG a MoThErFuCkEr A fAvOur bY gIvInG tHeM a MoThErFuCkInG rIdE"

"I DONT NEED YOUR FUCKING HELP. PUT ME DOWN YOU SACK OF SHIT"

Gamzee put me down on the horn pile, my back was on it. A honk noise came horn pile. I sat up as he went to sit down on the horn pile himself.

I did not want to speak. I wont say anything. I'll just lie to him, saying Kankri has been a little mean lately.

"WhAt HaS bEeN bOtHeRiNg YoU bEsT fRiEnD"

He looked at me with his, layed back smile. I didnt want to lie to him anymore. He was my moirail, I cant lie to him.

"ITS ABOUT ERIDAN.."