Second Chance

Family

She loves the park. Watching her trying to walk along the playset makes it hard not to smile. She really is a cute little girl. Watching her face light up as she swings high on the swings and the look of joy she gets when she slides down the slide. Even the smug look she gets when she manages to hang onto the climbing wall to walk herself around the steps. She crawls up them and through the tunnels babbling away to her wolf. You can see how triumphant she is when she manages to get to the top and then she crawls through the tunnels on her own. Well she drags her wolf with her too.

She carries that wolf everywhere. It's dragging in the dirt as she crawls and stumbles across the park. There's grass and dirt and rocks caught up in his fur. Snot and germs from all the other kids that play there collect on him every time she drags him through the plastic tunnels. Or when she runs him over the slide with her and the climbing wall. Looks like there's even bits of fruit, and is that macroni in there too. She feeds him everything she eats. It's almost like he's her taste tester. She really should take better care of her things.

She's covered in just as much dirt and food as her wolf and has the added fact that she has to be teething because she drools everywhere. Good thing she really likes that soother of hers or it would be worse. She always seems to have sticky hands even when she hasn't had anything to make them sticky. It's like they become sticky as if by magic. It has to be a little kid thing because teens don't have the same issue. Despite all that I still wouldn't let her go. Can't let her go. She's everything good in this terrible horrible world. All the suffering and torment don't even matter when I see her. She's the light at the end of the tunnel and she's going to be the light that saves us all from this darkness we've been living in.

"Hey little one. It's time to go. Grandpa is coming over for dinner tonight. We still need to go to the store before I can start cooking."

She's up in one of those tunnels ignoring him. Serves him right thinking she's his. She just keeps playing with her wolf and babbling away without a care in the world.

"It's time to go. Don't make me come up there and get you." His voice is firm. If I hadn't spend years with Mother I would make me think twice before ignoring him. He starts heading over to the tunnel she's sitting in. He reaches to grab her and she quickly crawls out of his reach. She manages to get down the slide before he catches up to her.

"No!" She screams it with a sense of authority. It's cute that she thinks she's in charge.

"You don't get to tell me no. It's time to go."

He bends down and picks her up and she's screaming. She's not happy at all. There's snot and tears covering her face. She's beating her tiny little fist against his chest and swinging her wolf at him with everything she has.

"NO! NO! NO!" She keeps screaming as he puts her in the car and drives off. He doesn't even seem phased that she's upset. I can hear her screams from my car. It breaks my heart. Why the hell aren't the other parents trying to stop him. She looks like she's being kidnapped. I know she's not but with her carrying on like she is a stranger would think so.

It's been over a week since I was able to get any bugs in their house. I wanted to get a few in there sooner but my guy took his sweet ass time doing it. I mean really, how does it take three fucking weeks to plant a few small bugs. I haven't gotten much from them but it's just a matter of time. They keep her on a pretty decent schedule. Bedtime is set in stone, nap times are there but not as set. Breakfast and dinner are set in stone like bedtime. But lunch is more like nap time, which is when they can get her to do it. They go out after lunch and nap to the park or a museum. And on the weekends she visits their family. She shouldn't have to be subjected to their family. They aren't her family, we are. It's just a matter of time before she's back with us.