Personal me

Chapter 1 goes unsaid

I was a child I was anxious scared of what they'll say think of me judge me... Oh it was so long ago. Like I said I wouldn't say I wasn't born without parents or accidents or something tragic like that but there was always something that was missing I wasn't happy I still am not. Maybe it's due to my parents my odd behavior. I guess I was always the odd one out. But as I sit and write and reminicse the past I remember all that I've been through and why haven't I stopped it all there.. I guess there is a purpose for everything and I should find my way out life goes in circles. Even if I fall into endless misery or end up in some hell I know there is no turning back. I mean a lot of people inspire me especially my grandma Rest In Peace ☮️ and I like to do things on my own terms I guess that's what makes me more aware of my surroundings and what I'm doing.. But I'm so tired and frustrated everywhere I go people giving me looks, all these rules. I just want to go somewhere peaceful alone.. maybe in between hell. I'm so confused with everything that has happened so scared of everything I just can't take this being me anymore..but I remember to always be myself and always invest in a better me and learn keep growing thinking of older me better me I never give up on myself