Skinny Love

The Final Goodbye

Despite the warnings, Patricia took Kelsey back. She allowed Kelsey to make her feel bad for hanging out with Maddie. She allowed Kelsey to act like cheating wasn't any worse than what she did. She allowed so much bullshit, because she loved the girl. She loved her with everything she had.

But Kelsey wasn't the same person she had fallen in love with in July. Kelsey lied to her, again, when she messaged and hung out with her ex Autumn at school after she transferred. Patricia threatened to leave her, since that's what Kelsey always did when Patricia spoke to someone she wasn't allowed to. Kelsey was going to let her. So she back tracked, because she loved her. She should've left.

Less than a week later, Kelsey was talking to another girl who liked her. She had been closing herself off from Patricia, and Patricia guessed why. Kelsey confirmed it. She was falling out of love with Patricia. She had talked to Autumn about it and finally told Patricia.

Patricia was broken for the last time. Through all of the bullshit Kelsey had put her through, she never fell out of love with her. She never gave up on her. But Kelsey could, so easily. Patricia was done. She told Kelsey that maybe one day they could be friends, but they could never be together again. Kelsey said that was fine with her.

Kelsey wasn't used to being alone. Her friends convinced her to go out with this girl Shirley who used to like her. Shirley was on the list of people Kelsey banned Patricia from talking to. So Patricia used her new found freedom to try to find some happiness after Kelsey's abandonment. When Kelsey found out, she cussed out Patricia and told her she wasn't worth anything. The hardest thing to hear from someone you're still madly in love with is that you're worthless.

The next day, Patricia's depression came back full force. She tried to talk to her friends about it but they either thought she was over exaggerating, or they were too busy. That night, she tried to kill herself.

Kelsey called her insane, and said she was killing herself over the break up. The break up wasn't even on Patricia's mind. She just felt so worthless. Nothing in her life was going right. Everyone died eventually, so why suffer before the inevitable?

The Friday, Kelsey came to collect her things. She brought Maddie with her, whom Kelsey had made to hate Patricia. Maddie had hurt Patricia just a year prior when she also left her, so Patricia couldn't handle being around both of them at once. She had a panic attack and threw one of the bags of stuff at Kelsey so she could run back to her room before they saw. Unfortunately, that bag had a glass vase in it that Kelsey had bought Patricia before she cheated on her, and it shattered; just like Patricia's heart.

Kelsey and Maddie immediately assumed it was on purpose and called Patricia psycho behind her back. There were Instagram posts and Facebook posts and all sorts of unnecessary things. They talked crap about Patricia to their friends and Patricia's friends and even complete strangers.

Patricia couldn't do anything. She explained to Maddie that she didn't mean to break the vase, but Maddie still stuck by the lie that Patricia was insane and tried to hurt them.

Patricia was done. She was still hurt over Kelsey leaving her out of the blue, but she didn't want anything to do with someone who would spread so much hate about her without even caring about the real cause behind the bag thrown. She knew Patricia was going to have a panic attack if she brought Maddie, Patricia had warned her. She didn't care about Patricia's feelings or well being. And now she wanted to ruin Patricia's reputation as well.

Although at first, Patricia had hoped maybe one day they'd be the people they were in July and fall madly back in love with each other and somehow make it work this time, she was done now. There was no going back. There was no forgiveness this time.

Patricia was done.