It comes from people all over the world. Sometimes even from those who don't even freaking know me. People tell you what to wear, how to speak, who to be. But it's flipping funny how inaccurate they all seem to be. I've had people tell me that I'm such a happy girl. Wrong. That I'm so smart. Wrong again. I've even had people tell me what I like and dislike.
But don't worry I don't want your sympathy, I mean it's the norm in this society right? We have parents who know what's best for us and teachers to guides us when the parents aren't there. But when you always seem to make me "who I am", what happens to me in the gaps of it all. When I'm not who you seem to think so adamantly "I am"- who the hell am I? I don't know but I sure as hell know it would be a lot easier without you. The world's input leaves me feeling sick to the bottom of my stomach where the rest of my guilt lays. It leaves me feeling so guilty and afraid that I'm not who you want me to be. That I am just me.
So I get so sick of you controlling who I am that I give up on me. I save me till the times when I'm alone with a pen & paper (or in my case my phone). But I can't stand it anymore. Because truthfully all I'll ever be is me. So when you're done finally telling me who to be, I'll be over there where you can no longer control me. Because compared to the person you want me to be I'm just a somebody.
But I think the day I can finally and truthfully be me all day everyday I'll finally be a happy somebody
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Things I can't stand
SonstigesWhether it's the way that the girl in the front of the class laughs obnoxiously or the faults that frustrate the hell out of me in a movie- read to find out what I'm ranting about.
