Upside Down And Switched Around

Not what I thought

The guys were discussing on who was going to get me first like WTF. So to end this I walked down the stairs and into the room they were talking in. It was right by the kitchen so I played the thirsty game. Once I hit the bottom step all the guys were staring at me. Matt whispered under his breath "Damn Taylor is lucky". So I just acted like I never heard that and went to get a drink. On my way back upstairs all the guys were staring at my ass I knew they were doing that because I felt eyes watching me. So I turned around and they all flipped their heads away from me except for Taylor and Matt. I still had feelings for Taylor but he was with that nasty whore. So I tried to his my feelings as much as I could. So the next morning we had 3 hours till our meet and greet, from when I woke up. When I was done I walked down stairs to see Taylor making out with Brittany. I started feeling tears coming down so I ran to the bathroom so no one can see me. Once I was done everyone was by the door listening to me cry. I didn't want to bring it back but I did I cut myself over and over again till I couldn't see my arm anymore it was covered in blood. So I hurried and washed my arm off and walked out. Everyone was staring at me with big eyes. Taylor knew what I did so he was staring at my arm more than anything. After everyone asked me what was wrong they walked away I told them it was nothing but Taylor wasn't taking it. So he asked me if I wanted to take a walk I said sure. So I grabbed my penny board and we headed to a skate park and he asked me what I did in the bathroom.