I sit in the corner of my room with a tub of pills and a blade.
I close my eyes and think about how I'm nothing without him.
The blade slowly runs over my skin and deeply splits it, the blood pours out. It was a cry for help but no one comes to help. I do a few more shouts, adding another cut, then another.
Blade and pills are all I got now. As I undo the lip, my door flies open. Jai runs towards me and grabs the pills of me. Hits the blade out of my hand and rushes a bandage on my arm.
I burst out crying into his arms, he rocks me back and forth. Blood was pouring everywhere.
"Hush little baby, don't you cry"
Jai began to sing, I just sob into his chest.
"Don't cut those wrists don't say good bye!"
He chokes up, his voice trembles as he looks at my fragile body.
"Shhhh. I'm here. I'm here now" he whispers, he kissed my forehead.
My sobs stop, tears froze and words couldn't come out.
He help me there as I slowly fall to sleep...
Jai's P.O.V
I pick her up and tuck her into bed, I put all blades and pills I found into a box and took them.
Then I went to meet Jodie and the boys.
"How is she?" Beau asked
"Not good, not getting better" I sigh
"What? She told me she was happy today!" Jodie said, it must be hard for her to see her Bestfriend so broken and hurt. I put a arm around her and hug her a little.
"She will be happy soon, ill make sure of it!"
"Soo, what was she doing?" Luke dared to ask, dan covered his ears and closed his eyes. It always killed dan when he saw jess cry. He was also so close to jess, they had a special bond.
"Cursing herself, crying, scarring herself, it honestly was the worst I saw her and it" all of a sudden tears cut me off, I burst into sobs. I couldnt remain strong anymore, we all gathered into a group hug.
"I know I will help her get through this! We got to help her guys we can't leave her" I managed to say as we all break away from the hug
"I'm with you" Jodie said, trying to smile, I wrapped my arm around her neck again hugging her once more time.
"Me too!" The boys agreed. In dans eyes, he just wanted to beat up the boy who made her this bad.
Jodie's P.O.V
This is the worst iv seen jai worry over jess. It seems to be getting worse and worse!
"Guys, I think I'm going to see her, make sure she's okay" I say
"She's sleeping, but just sit by her side or something , make sure she don't cry in her sleep" jai said
"Okay, I'll see you soon" I said, Luke pulls me in for a great big hug and a sweet soft peck on the cheek.
"Stay strong, make sure you do" Luke whispered. I nod my head and smile a little, then made my way to jess'
I got there, her mum and dad weren't there. I walk upstairs where I could hear sobs, I run into her room to find her taking pills.
"Jess no!"
I scream as loud as I could, she dropped to the floor, I ran and dropped to my knees, she was fitting. I called 999 quickly, they were asking too many questions and I just got stressed.
"JUST HURRY UP AND GET HERE I AM NOT LOOSING MY BESTFRIEND TODAY!"
"Okay! We are on our way"
I hang up, I was shaking so much, I could hardly type jai's number, but finally got it.
"Jai get here now please please please" I cried
"Be there now!" He hung up, then finally got here, he burst through the doors and him and the lads legged it to her room, she began to say her good byes
"I can see a big light, it's time for me to go" she sweetly whispered
"Jess you ain't going anywhere!" James shouted
"I love you all, so much" she drifted off, I kept shaking her
"Jess! Stay with us! You can fight this!" Luke shouts
I remain shaking her crying hard.
She looks at me, the ambulance arrived and the doctors burst through the door into the bedroom.
Then she took one, last... Breathe.
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