Just because I don't tell you my problems doesn't mean that I don't have them
Sometimes I just can't explain my problems
I don't mean I can't explain it because its such a long story or because its innapropriate
I can't explain because the words will not come out
They form in my head but get caught in my throat and refuse to try to untangle itself and let itself free
I have been trained to think that people do not care about my problems because
"other people have it worse than you" has been said by every person that I went to for help
Because my life is full of finally telling my problems to people that are paid to help only to be forgotten and left with broken promises
Because "what happens at home stays at home"
Because "whatever you need to say is not important right now"
Because "whatever you need to say can wait"
Because "oh you think YOU have problems, PLEASEEEE"
Because " you're so young how can you even have problems"
Because "you don't even know what problems are"
Because "your problems aren't my concern"
Because "you need to learn to handle your own problems"
How I can I learn to handle my own problems when nobody will listen and teach me
Since when has my age ment that I can't possibly have problems
If what happens at home stays at home why is it haunting me everywhere I go
Just because I don't tell you my problems doesn't mean that I don't have them
Just because I don't tell you my problems doesn't mean they don't effect me
Just because you can talk about your problems doesn't mean that I can
These are my problems and I will let them get caught in my throat and I won't force them out
These are my problems and I will let them burn me down
These are my problems and I will let them kill me slowly
These are my problems and I will die with them
Because I should be grateful
Because others have it worse than me
Because my problems aren't real problems...... Right?
