shuffle | l.s

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a/n:
▫playlist: http://open.spotify.com/user/platonicals/playlist/5RQdYVjMmTnerOBEOsujXn
▫shoutout to mau and ches for helping me out with the playlist! much love, uglies.

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Tunes for Lou.

P.S I could only wish that I
would still be sitting next to you while you're listening to these. - H

Are We Electric? - The Kooks

Seeing Stars - BØRNS

Homesick - Catfish and the Bottlemen

If These Sheets Were States - All Time Low

Home - Foo Fighters

Without You - Oh Wonder

LOST BOY - Troye Sivan

I Found - Amber Run

Can't Help Falling In Love - Haley Reinhart

Look After You - The Fray

Friends - Ed Sheeran

louis manages to make himself comfortable as the plane took off.
the music distracted him from his mild fear of heights as he watched the sight of the land before them shrink. they were ascending to the sky faster than he hoped they would. before he could get too sentimental and shed a tear or two, louis clicked the shuffle button.

an unnamed voice recording
began to play, leaving him perplexed but in awe of the singer's raspy vocals.

i want you here with me

like how i pictured it

so i don't have to keep imagining

louis pauses the recording,
he had never heard this song before.

come on, jump out of here

come on, bring everything

the voice sounded vaguely familiar.

is it too much to ask for something great?

louis gasps as the sudden realization hit him out of nowhere.
it was harry.
the strain in his vocals.
the way he quietly hummed beside louis made him no longer doubt that harry was the one singing.

the voice briefly paused,
before louis found him speaking in his own painfully slow yet captivating manner.

"if you're listening to this, that means your something else. or should i say...something great."
harry chuckles to himself,
louis nearly trembles at the fact that this was the last time he would hear the boy laugh. well, unless their paths cross again. but that only happens in movies.

"i wrote this song without having anyone in mind, which is mad. but the last thing that i want to do, is to build so many walls. i knew that in a life like this, we should always expect the unexpected. so here i am, in an empty room with a guitar i borrowed from my friend, niall."

"i should probably start saying what i really wanted to say but i don't even know where to start.
so greetings, person who is listening to this right now. there's a reason why i wrote this song for you, without even knowing that it would end up being about someone like you. i chose you. i chose you because i felt drawn to you. i chose you because i felt a sudden jolt of adrenaline the minute you walked into the room. i chose you because i really, really like you."

"if we end up together,
i must have gotten very lucky
in the future. but if we don't...i regret nothing. i want you to keep this tape as a token, of the unaddressed bond that we shared and the best decision i ever made."

louis squeezes his eyes shut,
in an effort to contain his emotions.
listening to the recording made it harder for him to accept the fact that he was leaving home.

"who knows? we might stumble upon one another in ten years. but alot can happen in a day, let alone a decade. so right now, i need you to smile. life is so random. everything is shuffled together and squeezed into such an unpredictable timeline. so i need you to make the most out of the days you have left in this world. love who you love, live recklessly. not literally though, i don't want you to end up in jail.
before i go, i do have a promise..."

"in another life,
i would choose you
and i would never get
tired of choosing you."

louis never really believed in love.
he was more of a fighter.
harry on the other hand,
was a selfless lover.
people like them don't usually belong together, specially in a world where death is the only thing that is promised.

all that was left for louis to do was to stare into the vast uncertainty as the music continuously blasted from his headphones. he only knew harry for hours yet it did feel like he was leaving someone that he knew for as long as he can remember, behind.

six hours ago, louis felt like he was carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders. but right now?
with a genuine smile on his face,
he found himself thinking about the fact that someone finally made him feel like life was worth living.

you're all i want,
so much it's hurting.

they may not be
together in this life.
but who knows?
in another lifetime,
louis and harry could
already be lovers.