Dear Jimmy, Love Denise

10/29/2011

Dear Jimmy,

Here it is, almost Halloween! Well, it IS my Halloween. This is the first time I've dressed up in years! I guess there are pluses to working in a bar. Guess what, Jimmy! I've dressed up as a skankier version of myself: an Avenged Sevenfold groupie! I'm even wearing fishnets!

What would you have dressed up as this year? I know you guys dressed up for parties. I heard Matt and Brian on the radio before, talking about it. I don't really think you would have needed to dress up. Why would you want to be anything other than yourself? You seemed like you were too interesting of a person to really need to pretend to be something else.

I'm doing better since we talked last. Not as sad anymore. I guess it has something to do with the fact that I decided to write you these letters. I hope you can read them. Just wish you could write back. There's so much I want to know.

I follow a lot of fan sites on Facebook for you and the band. One of them I follow posted the question of if the guys have been touring too much since you died. I guess it took until then to really think about that. I think the answer is yes. It worries me, Jimmy. I don't know if it's in honor of you or because they really haven't dealt with you leaving. But, I heard they're taking a break after the Buried Alive tour, and I hope they stay off of the 6 months I heard they were talking about. They need a break.

Well, Jimmy, I still miss you. Once again, this won't change until I see you in the afterlife. I really hope that I do. I have so much to ask you and so much I want to be able to say to your face. I wish I could have met you when you were alive. I really do. That's another somthing that will make me sad until I see you.

I have to go now, Jimmy. My job won't wait for me. It's going to be a big night tonight! Supposed to be really busy. I just hope nothing bad happens. Will you come with me, Jimmy? Will you watch over me and keep me safe? I would feel better if you would.

I hope to talk to you later, Jimmy. I look forward to it.

Yours always,

Denise K. Bast

A7X soldier