Dear Jimmy, Love Denise

11/23/2011

11/23/2011

Dear Jimmy,

It's me again! I know I haven't written for awhile, but life has been insane. Which I'm sure you knew, because I know you're watching over me. Life has become difficult again, Jimmy, and I'm struggling to deal with it. But, once again, I bet you already knew that....

School is stressful, and to escape the stress, I write here on Wattpad. Ok, so, I apologize if my A7X fan stories freak you out, but hey! They're all in good fun. I know my limits! But, anyway... I get stressed a lot, so then I tend to write a lot. I also get so into my stories that I can't pull away! Which leads to problems with stressful school. It's a vicious cycle! Sometimes I don't know what do to...

I'm having relationship issues in my head, Jimmy. But, I bet you knew that, too. I'm in love with my fiancee, but yet... I feel for someone else. No, not you, because you're on a whole different level! You're different. No, it's someone close to me, and very similar to me... in quite a few ways. I tried to fight it, and so far nothing has worked. I told them earlier, Jimmy, which I have a feeling you were watching me type from over my shoulder. I hope they're right, that I'm just mis-interpreting what's going on, but I don't know... Jimmy, please help me.... It hurts...

I have to ask you something, Jimmy... Are you visiting me? I'm pretty sure it's you. I don't feel scared when things happen to me, and you held my hand that night I first wrote to you, when I was sobbing into my pillow. I knew it was you. And when you played me sweet music on my little nephew's toy piano... I felt comforted, like I was being hugged by someone. And then when my fiancee saw someone sitting in my favorite chair, someone who fits your description... I knew right away it was you. I guess my follow-up question is... Why me? Is it because you know how much I love you? Because of my tattoo in your memory? Or because I need the help?

I hope you're with the guys, Jimmy, and not just with the fans. The boys need you for sure. They miss you every day. I just know it. I can't wait to see them in about 12 days or so! They'll put on a great show for sure! And I know that you'll be there. I hope you're as proud of them as we all are. Ha! That's a no-brainer for sure! Of course you are!

Well... I suppose that I should say goodbye for now... I should sleep, get ready for Thanksgiving and the like.... I hope you will keep visiting me, Jimmy... I like to know that you're close. It's comforting...

Love foREVer,

Denise