Dear Diary

Chapter 1

Dear Diary,

April 30, 2016

I saw her again today, yet I still haven't talked to her. I can't get those blue eyes out of my head. What am I feeling though? I've been having trouble answering that question, I don't really know what I am feeling. You can't blame me though, I am only fourteen, I don't know what love is, I barely know what I'm attracted to, which I'm kinda confused with that though. One day I'm gonna know, one day somebody perfect for me will come along, and I can either seize the moment, or squander it. That's all I know for sure, that is, as of now. 

Dear Diary,

April 31, 2016

Eliana, that's her name. I talked to her, the whole time my voice was shaky, sometimes I'm a wimp. She wants me to hang out with her and her friends tomorrow, is that a good sign? Her voice was so pretty, it was a little raspy and a tad high pitched, her face was flawless, it looked soft. She spoke softly and beautifully, she was perfect, so far. We sat down and talked for ten minutes about random stuff, I remember one conversation we had about formal wear. She had brought up a dance that she wants to go to for school, like an eighth grade version of prom. Oh yeah, and she's fourteen too, well on Tuesday... That's when we'll hang out... It's her party, but should I really go? I don't know if her friends will like me, what if they don't?

Dear Diary,

May 1, 2016

Today my mom and I got in a fight, I hate fighting with her, it hurts me a lot. Ever since I was a young child she's been my only parent, well that is, real parent. My dad left us when I was like 3, but he decided to come back into the picture last year. Now he wants custody of me because my mom dumped him a few weeks ago. There have been multiple court hearings, but I just don't want him in my life. I mean sure, I like him, he's my dad, but I LOVE my mom, she's been there. That's why it hurts to be in fights with her, even though it's just verbal. These fight are just tedious, we fight over stupid things like; chores, grades, relationships (hers not mine), and other stupid things that parents start arguments over. Well this time my mom got mad that I didn't do the dishes so obviously I had to argue that that wasn't my job, it was my sister's. My mom actually surprisingly can tell us apart, my dad on the other hand, can't, yet another reason he's an idiot. Funny story, one time my sister's boyfriend Caden tried to hit on me, I guess he thought I was Claire, but no, I'm just lame old Chloe. I never actually told Claire about that, if she'd found out she would've already broken up with him, but no. I actually don't get along wit Caden that well, I don't trust him, at all. I feel like that whole "accident" with me wasn't an actual accident. I don't think I'm the only girl he's kissed behind my sister's back. He actually reminds me a lot of my dad, he's a deadbeat asshole, yup that's what it is. 

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HEY GUYS, I WILL BE TRYING TO UPLOAD EACH CHAPTER AS A WEEK OR CLOSE TO A WEEK, AND IM THINKING THAT EVERY OTHER CHAPTER WILL BE IN POV INSTEAD OF JUST CHLOE WRITING TO HER DIARY. ALSO, I AM NOT CONSIDERING MYSELF AS AN AMAZING AUTHOR, I APPRECIATE CONSTRUCTIVE CRITISM SO PLEASE DONT HOLD BACK... TELL ME HOW YOU THINK IT SHOULD BE. KEEP IN MIND, THIS IS THE FIRST CHAPTER, SO THE NEXT ONES WILL BE DOUBLE UPLOADED... I JUST WANT TO GET A FEEL FOR THE BOOK AT THE MOMENT.