Her Tears, My Love (One Shot)

One Shot

                Nate's POV

Here I am lying in my bed imagining my life without her. ugh! Why do I have to experience this kind of shit?!

*Riiiiiiiiiing*

-Stephanie Calling-

She's calling! Gusto kong sagutin ang tawag niya pero di ko kaya. Gusto kong pakinggan ang boses nya pero alam kong masasaktan lang ako. 

[Hello! Hello Nate?! Thank God you answer my call! I miss you.]

That voice. How I miss her voice! Ilang araw ko na din syang iniiwasan, Gusto ko syang sagutin ng ' I miss you too' pero bawal.

[Nate? Are you still there?]

"....."

[I know you're listening. Why are you avoiding me?]

"....."

[Nate ... *sobs* ... please]

Sh!t! I make her cry again! Stupid Nate! 

"Not now Steph. Im busy"

[But...]

*Call ended*

I heard the door opens.

"Hey Nate, kumain ka kaya muna?" She's my ate Nica.

"Yeah. Susunod ako."

"Okay"

I took a long shower and went downstairs to eat my breakfast.

"Nate ayos na ba kayo ni Steph?"

"Nah."

"Sabihin mo na kaya sa kanya ang totoo?"

I look directly into her eyes and said...

"NO!" Tsaka dali-dali akong pumunta pabalik ng kwarto.

"Nate! Kumain ka muna kanina ka pa dyan sa kwarto mo eh." she exclaimed.

" I lost my appetite." Then I slammed the door and locked it.

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Time passed so fast, it's already 5:00 P.M. At sa mga oras na nagdaan iyak lang ang ginawa ko. Para na akong bakla neto eh. Shit. Sumisikip na din ang dibdib ko, nahihirapan na din akong huminga.

*knock knock*

"Nate?"

Hindi ko kayang sagutin si ate at humingi ng tulong sa kanya kasi nahihirapan akong mag salita dulot ng pagsikip ng dibdib ko. Damn!

"Nate!"

"Nate! Inaatake  ka ba?! Wait! Kukunin ko muna yung susi at gamot mo!" After she said that everything went black.

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Pagmulat ng mata ko puro puti na naman ang nakikita ko. Tsk. Hospital again.

"Nate, gising ka na pala. Sinugod ka na namin dito ni Mang Ben dahil nawalan ka na ng malay tsaka di na kaya ng gamot mo. Alalang-alala ako sayo. Alam mo ba yun? Kaya mag pagaling ka. " kuya Ben, our driver.

"Where's mom and dad?" I asked avoiding to answer what she said a while ago

"Business trip sa Europe." she answered shortly

"Tsk"

"Oh kainin mo muna 'to. Hindi pa kasi ako nakabili ng pagkain mo eh." Then she handed a piece of an apple.

"Nate sabi nung doktor mas lumalala daw yung sakit mo. Mas lumalaki daw yung butas ng puso mo."

Yes, you heard it right. I have a heart failure since I was born. Swerte na ding matatawag dahil umabot pa ako sa edad na 20.

"Nate why don't you just accept the operation?" Tsk. Here we go again.

"No! diba sabi ko kung mamamatay ako, mamamatay ako. Hindi ko kailangan ng puso ng iba, hindi ko kailangan ng tulong ng iba para mabuhay!" I yelled

"But I can't afford to lose my brother. I can't afford to lose you Nate." bakas sa boses nya ang kalungkutan

"That's life ate, that's life."  ang tanging naisagot ko nalang. After few minutes we heard a knock. 

*knock knock*

"Come in." 

Then a girl entered my room.

"Steph" I whispered. After that I diverted my gaze to ate Nica giving her the what's-the-meaning-of-this look.

"I called her Nate. You two should talk. Bibili muna ako ng pagkain mo." Then she went outside and close the door of my hospital room

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" Why are you here?" I asked with cold expression breaking the silence between the two of us.

"Nate... Why didn't you tell me na may sakit ka? For three years of our relationships tinago mo sa akin 'to? Kaya ba iniiwasan moa ko these past few weeks dahil ayaw mong malaman kong may sakit ka?" sunod-sunod na tanong nya and she started to cry.

Ayoko mang magsinungaling sa kanya but this is the only way for her to leave me and forget me.

"No I don't love you anymore oh scratch that, I didn't love you I just played your feelings for three f*cking years. Karma na siguro 'to because of playing your feelings."

"Nate *sobs*" I want to wipe her tears at bawiin ang nga sinabi ko. God knows how much I love her." 

"Let's end this... I-I'm breaking up with you." Mas lalong lumakas ang hagulgol nya

"Leave me now." I said. Gusto kong saktan ang sarili ko. Gusto ko syang lapitan at bawiin ang sinabi ko. Ako na siguro ang pinaka gagong lalaki sa buong mundo. I love her so much. I really do. Kaya ko lang naman ginagawa to dahil ayoko syang MAS lalong masaktan pag dumating ang araw na mawawala na ako.

"N-Nate *sobs*" She's trying to wipe her tears pero kusang bumubuhos ang luha nya. I hate it when I see her crying... because of me.

"Please do me a favor before I go out and let you go."

"What is it?"

"P-Please lumaban ka. Kahit di para sa mga taong nagmamahal sayo kundi para sa sarili mo mismo. Tulungan mo ang sarili mo. Please... live."

After she said that she walk towards the door slowly but before she opened the door, she said these, the words that change my mind and the reason to live.

"I love you Nate. I really do."

 "I love you too Steph. I really do." I said that after she close the door and finally leave me.

----------------------------------------------------------- 2 YEARS LATER--------------------------------------------------------

2 years had passed but still I can't forget her. The girl of my dreams. My life.

I accepted the operation just like what she said 2 years ago. I live.

Pero sa loob ng dalawang taon hindi ako nagpakita sa kanya, hindi ako nag paramdam. Kasi ayokong makita nya ang lalaking nanakit sa kanya ng sobra. Tama na yung mga panahong sinaktan ko sya at iniwan. But I promise I will never forget her. 

The memories of the two of us is buried here in my heart.

" I love you Steph. I really do."

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A/N: Thank you po. First time ko pong gumawa ng story dito sa wp. Hope you like it. :*) Happy Summer!