I know I was supposed to upload yesterday, but sadly that didn't happen. I could give you a bunch of excuses, but I know some of you wouldn't even care because you just want to read the chapter *cough* *cough* Bianca. Just kidding. I love you, DON'T WALK AWAY FROM ME. I THOUGHT WHAT WE HAD WAS SPECIAL. wut ._. So how many of you actually read this instead of going straight to the story? cx ANYWHORE, I think I should shup up now. ONWARD MY WAYWARD MOOSE. And if you don't know what that was from then you should obviously go read Super_Whovian's TVD fanfiction. It's beautiful c': ~Waffles
Chapter 8
As if on instinct, I wrapped my arms around his neck as I kissed him back. He put his hands on my waist, pulling me closer to him, as he gave me the most passionate kiss I have ever received. For that moment, I forgot about everything. I forgot that just a couple months ago I was in a depressing state. I forgot why I was upset to begin with. I forgot the fact that I nearly killed myself. Everything –in that perfect moment –was forgotten.
When we broke apart, he said the words I have been dying to hear since Halloween. “Will you be mine?”
I gave him a small peck on the lips and nodded. He grabbed my hand and we walked off the school grounds. We drove to McDonalds and bought some food (we were too… distracted at lunch to actually buy some). We then drove to Wal-Mart because we actually had nothing to do. So this is how I ended up hiding from Jason in the clothes racks… with his beanie… that I kind of stole from him and was now wearing. He’s a little too overprotective when it comes to his beanies, which is why it’s fun to take them from him. “Victoria!” I heard him call out. He was actually getting pretty close. Maybe I should go hide somewhere else… I peeked out to make sure he wasn’t going to see me and I made a run for it. I was running in the direction of the plants when I ran right into someone. Luckily, I had a soft landing. As for the unfortunate person, I crashed into, not so much.
“Victoria?” he asked. I crawled off him and was now sitting on the ground, staring at him in pure shock.
“Victoria, there you are!” I paid no attention to my boyfriend whom I spent the past 30 minutes hiding from with his beanie. I only paid attention to my ex-boyfriend who was sat in front of me. I stared at him, dumbfounded, wondering why the hell he came back. I was perfectly fine without him, but now that he’s back… “Why are you on the floor?” he asked, ignoring Trent completely. He bent down and helped me to my feet then swiped the beanie off my head, placing back on his own head.
“Trent…” I said as I stared at the guy who broke my heart. Jason’s head snapped in his direction, recognition crossing his face. To say he looked pissed is an understatement. He then turned to me, his features turning gentle once again.
Jason held my hand in his and whispered in my ear, “Let’s get out of here.” All I could do was nod. We walked out of the store, towards his car.
I had told Jason that I needed to be alone right now and he, reluctantly, agreed to drive me home. He didn’t think it was such a good idea for me to be alone after seeing the guy who dumped me after 2 years of dating for the first time since the breakup. That’s how I ended up in my room, lying on my bed and staring at the ceiling. What the hell was he doing here? Wasn’t he in California? What made him come back? Why couldn’t he have just stayed where he was? Why now, of all times? Jason and I just started dating today and he comes and ruins everything!
I wish I had never run off with Jason’s beanie. I wish we had never gone to Wal-Mart and I wish we had never left the school! Dammit! I couldn’t fight the tears anymore. I burst out crying. I can’t take it anymore! Why is this happening to me? Why me? The pain was eating away at me. I glanced at the drawer that held my razors, but thought against it. Last time, I almost went too far. I got up and turned on some music instead. The first song to pop up on shuffle was Witness the Addiction by Suicide Silence.
‘I used to pray every day, wishing for a better way. When nothing changed, I lost my faith. Wishing for a better day.’
Music was always my escape for everything. Sometimes, it just didn’t speak to me loudly enough. I didn’t choose to be broken. The only reason I got through my uncle’s death last year was because I had Cassie, Chris, and Trent. Now, it feels like I have no one. I know that’s not true, but I can’t shake the feeling of being alone.
‘Coming home to addiction inside, it was always on my miserable mind.’
This song really speaks to me because it reminds me of my addiction. The addiction that I’m so ashamed of. The same addiction that nearly killed me more than once.
‘I used to wish I could fly. Spread my wings and fly away. I’d cross my fingers for a day, wishing for a better way. So take my hands and take me away. I’d close my eyes and even pray, wishing for a better day.’
I can’t understand why I feel this way. I have Jason now. I shouldn’t be stressing over some guy. But he’s not just some guy, my brain reminded me. He’s the guy who I gave everything to, well almost everything. Without him, I wouldn’t have made it this far after my uncle’s death. But he broke your heart, my brain reminded me, once again. I can’t do this. I turned down the music and called Jason.
He answered on the first ring. “Victoria?” He sounded concerned. Well, who wouldn’t be when they were forced to leave their depressed girlfriend alone?
“Can you come over?” I asked him.
“Yeah, I’ll be there as fast as I can,” he said. I could already hear him running out the front door and starting his car.
As soon as I opened the door for Jason, he pulled me into a tight embrace. I melted into his arms. How had I not realized that this was all I needed? That he was all I needed? I realized that I didn’t want to be alone anymore. “Will you stay at least until I fall asleep?” I asked him once we were up in my room.
“Of course,” he said as he kissed the top of my head. “Do you want me to drive you to school tomorrow? Or do you just want to skip?”
“I’ll have to face him sooner or later, won’t I? I guess, I just have to hope that he won’t want to talk to me,” I sighed.
We were lying on my bed and my head was on his chest. His arms were wrapped tightly around me. Just before I fell asleep, he placed a soft kiss on my forehead.
The next morning I had to practically drag myself out of bed. I pulled on any random t-shirt, black skinny jeans, black Chuck’s, my Batman hoodie. When I walked outside, Jason was pulling into my driveway. I got in the front seat of his black Mustang and he leaned over and gave me a quick kiss.
“’Darling, you’ll be okay,’” he quoted Pierce The Veil. I just smiled at him and he continued driving to school. I was so not looking forward to having to see Trent again. Ugh. My life sucks, but I shouldn’t complain. I have a hot boyfriend, after all. I smiled to myself. Boyfriend. Jason is now my boyfriend!
DON'T YOU JUST LOVE JASON? I know I do. I'm jelly of Victoria and I created her ._. (Hehe. That still sounds wrong.) Just imagine me going up to her and saying "Victoria, I am your mother!" cx I really shouldn't be alowed to have sugar o.o SCREW THE RULES I HAVE GREEN HAIR! (I really don't v.v) Until next time! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! ~Waffles
