The End Of All Things || Phan

Now and Then

/Phil/
I looked at the reflection of myself through the mirror, the white suit draped over my body in a messy style. I knew I was supposed to be getting ready, but I felt like I needed a moment to think. Taking a deep breath in, I sighed softly then pushed my black hair back and out of my face. I had a feeling I was taking to much time, but I couldn't get myself to move any further then this. My heart was beating against my chest so hard it hurt, but in the best way possible. Hearing a rustling sound at the door, my head shot over that way just in time to see it flying open, PJ standing there. He had a light blue suit on and a dark brown tie, a white button up shirt on underneath.
"Your still not ready?" He asked looking at me with a small frown, I gave a weak smile at his words making his expression melt into a smile as well.
"My stomach hurts a bit" I said looking down, knowing my feelings were obvious to the situation. He kept his smile then walked up behind me so we both looked into the mirror.
"Your just nervous, Phil. You always get like this" PJ said smiling fondly. I smiled then shook my head.
"No I don't" I defended, pouting a bit and looking at him. He scoffed and looked back at the mirror.
"Yes you do, I've known you forever. Now we're gonna go out there, and we're gonna do this. I know it's what you've always wanted" he said looking into my eyes. I felt hesitant to respond but I managed to nod in agreement. He smiled then put his hand on my shoulder.
"Ready?"

[1 Year Earlier]

"Just go away!"
Those were the last words I'd heard dan say before I left. I was now seated on a bus, staring out the dirty, finger printed window. A voice echoed throughout the bus announcing we'd be leaving soon. I sighed and was about to let my eyes close shut before I felt a presence seating itself next to me.
Great.
I'd been hoping I wouldn't have to sit next to anyone but it happened anyways. I looked over at him giving an awkward smile to the man that was sitting next to me. I took a second to study his appearance, light blond messy hair, intense green eyes and pale skin fairly similar to my own. The man gave a smile back that was less awkward, more natural. He nodded slightly then spoke.
"Hi, my names Logan" he said letting his green eyes trail up and down my body.
"And what do I call you?" He asked, a slight tilt to his head reminding me of a puppy. I felt my cheeks burn a bit, feeling awkward but also flustered.
"P-phil" I stuttered then mentally slapped myself. His smiled just grew wider, a small rough laugh escaping the curl of his lips.
"Nice to meet you, Phil" he said and I smiled, a red tint still on my cheeks. I felt guilty for even reacting to the man's actions, but I shouldn't. I shouldn't feel guilty at all. Dan still on my mind as my phone suddenly vibrated.
Speak of the devil.
I sighed, rolling my eyes slightly then unlocking my phone to see the message.
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[Dan] - Phil I'm sorry okay?
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[Dan] - please answer.. or.. just come home? Please?
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[Dan] - Don't just go to your parents house we need to figure this out!
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[Phil] - I was already planning to see them. Also you made your point clear, there's nothing to talk about.
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That first part was a lie. My parents weren't expecting me, they'd actually gone on holiday last week, I didn't really know where I was going, but after the fight me and dan had the last place I wanted to be was 'home'. I guess I had a worrying expression on my face since I felt a tap on my shoulder, my head turning to the blond haired boy.
"Are you okay, Phil? You look troubled." He said making my expression drop a little.
"Yeah.. it's just my boyf- I mean, best friend. We're fighting" I said looking down. He sighed then put his hand on my shoulder, looking at me and smiling
"It sounds like it's a little more then just a fight." He said and I nodded back then shook my head, clearly confused about my feelings.
"It was a fight, nothing more nothing less. Just a fight that made it very clear what we were" I said hoping that'd make it obvious as to what we were fighting about.
"You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to Phil, sometimes just having someone by your side helps" he said making me blush softly.
I shouldn't feel guilty.
I kept reminding myself but the feeling wouldn't go away. I had no reason to feel bad, as it was him who pushed me away.

I walked out of my room, grabbing my shirt on the way and slipping it on. I caught sight of dan in the kitchen then smiled. I walked over to him and kissed his cheek, I could feel him tense up after but I ignored it as I grabbed a mug for coffee.
"What happened last night.. that was just a one time thing" Dan said, holding his mug firmly and looking down at the table. I laughed a bit then rolled my eyes
"You say that everytime" I said shaking my head. He frowned and looked up, raising his mug off the table then slamming it back down on it
"I mean it Phil!" He spoke, the loud noises making my jump a little.
"Okay, fine" I said holding my hands up in surrender. He groaned then looked back down, still frowning
"Your not listening Phil, you never listen!" He said, practically yelling now. I looked over at him, clearly hurt and confused.
"What? What's wrong dan?" I asked getting frustrated he wasn't being up front with me.
"Everything is Phil! I know you thought last night was fun, and I know you get lonely but I'm straight" he said angrily. I frowned at that, hating when he directed everything to me.
"Are you kidding me? So suddenly everything is my fault when you were practically begging for it last night" I said but was immediately responded to
"I was not! It's times like this I regret asking you to live together" he said, which hurt. He could tell it hurt me, and I knew he felt guilty but he would never admit he did, so I played the guilt card.
"Really? You regret asking to live together?" I asked looking hurt, which I was. He looked guilty, which only seemed to make him more mad.
"Shut up!" He yelled, closing his eyes tight and covering his ears.
"Da-" I was about to say his name but was cut off
"Just go away!" He yelled, louder this time making me jump a little. I was about to just run to my room, but I felt angry instead. He had no right to be mad.
"Fine" I said then stomped to my room pulling out my suitcase. Wanting him to think I had just gone to my room, I opened my drawers quietly then started stuffing clothes into my suitcase. As soon as I was done I went out, seeing his eyes widen when he noticed me holding a suitcase.
"I'm going to my parents house, you won't have to worry about me anymore" I said then left without another word.

"We will now be leaving the station, make sure to stay in your seats and enjoy the ride. We should arrive at your destination in 2 to 4 hours." I heard the woman's muffled voice speak through the intercom. I sighed, the ride was gonna be a long one. I felt my phone vibrate making my frown, I didn't want to talk to dan.
"Is he disturbing you?" I heard Logan ask, making my turn his way realizing he was talking about dan who was texting me.
"Oh, no I wouldn't say disturbing, just more annoying" I said rolling my eyes a little. He took my phone off of my lap then simply turned it off then smiled, setting it back on my lap.
"There. Now you can enjoy the ride" he said and I smiled.
This was gonna be interesting.

// Hope you like this if your reading. Planning on posting a new chapter soon //