Can She Do It

things can go up and down

I started to get better. I went to school after 1 and a half years of  pre-school. I met friends but they weren't real friends they made fun of me and started laughing at me. So my mom told me I could be homeschooled I took the opportunity because that's all that happend. I was now 6.5 and started kindergarten. I had lots of fun. On Thursday days and Fridays I had a teacher come but the other days my mom did it for me. I then started doing little activity's like going to the store and going shopping. 6 months after I started school and going out. My doctor told me this
"Hey, your cancer is getting worse it is in your brain. And its getting all over your brain. You can't go out anymore. You have to stay at the hospital. And you can't do school unless it is at the hospital." I started to cry I wanted to make friends,the only friends I ever had was my doctors. So I started to stay at the hospital again.I then found out that I wasent making it past christmas. My mom told me I can have Christmas on my birthday. I wanted to turn 7 but my doctors doughted it... So I had to have hope is what I was told. So people started hope week at schools. It was awesome and it was for people like me and all the other hospitals in st.jude I got very exited.
I met some friends, since I was in a kids hospital. But the awesome thing was.... THEY WERE MY AGE , they weren't doctors, they weren't my mother.
But then a lot of them died, because we all have cancer. No one really knew what was wrong with me, it was something new, I felt very special, but then at the hospital some of the kids started bullying me. So I got very very depressed and sad. So I had to start going to therapy but that is horrible I have to talk about my stupid feelings. No one cares about me and how sick I am and almost dead 6 year old. But I had to. I wanted to die, it would be so much easier... I would be with my daddy!!