To Live and To Let Go.

First

That's the moment where the line goes flat, where the sadistic moment kicks in. You hope it's a terrifying dream that you will wake up from. But you won't and you know you won't. The only thing you do wake up to is the reality, that you must take life as it goes. Go with the waves and sail on, some people may fall off the boat, but if you carry them for to long you may drown. You can only hold onto a certain amount of problems, whether that's of others or your own. I don't want you to drown and I don't want myself to drown but sometimes you have to make decisions. You have to put yourself first at times. It is hard, but to change your life you need to take the first step, and then follow it with the others. So.... what else is there that you can do?

Grief will hit, and the flatline will stay in your mind, the sound of that now, non continuous, but what was a supportive beat, gone. But to overcome this is to realize that you can't always mourn on the past. You can, indeed, remember the memories but don't hoard to much, to make those memories bad. It's a matter of life that you have to learn, and things can't always stay like that.

So, what is the point in trying to believe that something will happen? When you don't even know if it will? These life questions, that you can't seem to answer, won't actually get answered... and what if we all had to live like that....

What if that is life?

The fact that there is so many un-answered questions, that no one knows the right answer to, leaves people's minds, typically blown. We all have the same questions, that are left un-answered, so why can't we find the answer. Find out for certain why there aren't cures yet. Why isn't there actual evidence on certain things. People say they want to know; what is the meaning of life?

What is the point of existence? If the answer to this is to make history, then what will happen if the world just one day, ends. All life is gone, and if new life is built then how will they know the history that we had or made? If this happens, what will we do about it? You can't do anything, because we will be dead, and how will we know if there is new life on another new earth? Because it isn't even certain if there is an afterlife.

All these consist of is people's beliefs. But then we can ask, what if peoples beliefs are just to reassure themselves that when they die, they will go to a better place called 'heaven', this would be from a Christian's view.

There are so many un-answered questions, and there are people in the world, that do nothing about it. They may think that it's not their job, and you; you reading this might think, that if I'm here telling you this then why don't I do something about it? Try and find answers. And my answer to that is because I am, simply still laid in an uncomfortable hospital bed. My mind has nothing else to think about and I can't go out there and change the world.

All the time, I hear the comforting sound of my beat on the monitor, telling me I'm still here to see another day, yet some of the people in this ward, have almost nearly experienced death, more than I. But that does not stop them from re-awakening and becoming stronger than death. For us, as humans, are oblivious to the fact that reapers and the guardians are on a formal battle, to kill and protect their designated human rather respectfully. And to me that. Is a better way to die, believe that no matter how hard, that guardian did fight for mercy but as you get older so does he, and his powers must at one point become weaker. Rather, the reaper knows it will win at one point because the guardian, no matter how much of this he knows, is always weaker, but he will protect you through most things, and we know that it is inevitable, therefore you must be appreciative of life.

Now, you might have picked up on me telling you, that I'm in a hospital bed. That my friend is true. I have been laid here not being able to move for the past few days. The most dangerously easy jobs, aren't all that easy when you think about it. From the outside, it looks incredibly easy, but to the person with the job, it could be their only goal of the year. To complete their job they were hired for. Yet, simply, people judge you from the outside, nothing else.

For me, you should, by your own rights have an opinion on people, but you shouldn't go out to spread those bad ones around. No one should, the thing about the world, is we are too negative about things. For me life is a matter of seconds when you look at it, you have got: time, years, measurements. But what do they truly measure, for one person can invent such thing called 'time', that we all have to abide by. Although, all time is a measurement of is the sun. When it rises, when its at it's peak and when its setting. The world is only and always just a set of rules, for all of us, but then we have our different rulers in the country; creating more rules and laws. We do need them, I agree but sometimes we need to imagine what the world was like before all of this. When all we wondered about was 'Stars' or how light reached our planet.

But time changes us. Never does it heal. For who knows how long I will be in this hospital, whether my death is approaching sooner than expected or whether its longer then I would like.

One more thing, whilst we are on the subject of life... today I got asked if I can define the word 'life' and as a matter of fact, I did. But not some scientist version, for my own.

My answer was indeed: Life, the only thing you really only get one shot at, with everything that goes on around us you might probably get a second chance at it. Where it never leaves. But life, life can be snapped away from you in an instant. And you have to be appreciative that you're actually alive. I believe that in some way you have a deadline on when/how long you live for, and for people it varies and for some it may not be long at all. But sometimes they are needed in other places. Or that's what they say, because like I've said we don't know what happens after our life. It's like a secret where you find out when you're ready. I cannot really give a valid answer, because of how 'young' I am, compared to the older generations. Therefore, I find life, for an individual, a secret; we all have our ways of explaining life and there isn't a right or wrong answer... For different people, they take life differently, as we are all uniquely right in our own ways.

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A/N: So i know i havent updated the other book and finished that one but ive had a busy year and everything. Im still busy and updates on this may be slow but i will try my best <3 please tell me what you think of this and maybe share it?

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